How have you been? Here is a topic that can be tricky. we face a society of people pleasers. people longing to be accepted. doing whatever it takes to feel adequacy of the heart. trying so hard to be something fit into society we miss out on the true heart of things.
for the first time in a long time this is a topic so dear to me. but its hard to write about for some reason. you see i don't want to write about what you want to hear. i don't want to pretend anymore. so here i am going to be real and raw.
so many of us are going through hard things i mean its hard tough stuff. and for most of our lives we have been told not to talk about it. so here we are we are aching to speak up and say what's real. but how can we start to talk about the real deal heart issues. maybe it starts here and maybe it doesn't. but let me try and use my voice to build all of us up.
it was a summer day and the sun shining brighter then the days past. thoughts of Jonah running through her mind. how determined she was to marry him. after all they had so much in common. something you have to know about belle once she got something in her mind she wouldn't stop till she got it. then when Jonah came along they became so close. he was shy belle was enthusiastic a dreamer. belle knew she had a good thing. he would take his time and wait while belle would go about adventure and try and rush timing. both very simple in there own way. this carried on for quite awhile then one day belle and Jonah had a fight and things changed. slowly and seemingly there conversations came to a mute so to speak. belle decided out of anger that she'd teach Jonah a lesson so she found any guy who would love her. and show interest she began to lose herself. one kiss at a time. she smiled on the outside as if nothing happened. but she kept compromising her heart her identity in guys who never wanted anything but sex. belle was to focused on pleasing the temporal fix, she lost sight of the good in her life. she fell hard. and thought she had no one to turn too.then Alexander came and he showed her love. he was the man who spoke love. but when it came to time. he never had time for belle. she started to get frustrated and think that Alexander didn't care about her. yet he tried to reach out to her, but as determined and damaged as belle had become.she broke up with Alexander she started to form so much anger towards men. again on the outside she played the part of good. inside she was falling to pieces. just wanted to be loved and comforted.she again started looking everywhere for love in the background. she met another guy at a special event. he was very tall dark and handsome. belle was immediately connected to Carlton. Carlton brought a new smile upon belle's face. she thought Carlton would be the perfect cover. belle would forget her hurt and fool around with Carlton. it brought momentarily affection that could not erase how belle really felt inside. so belle stopped talking to Carlton for a while and thought that not talking would solve her problem. but it didn't. it made her miss and want Carlton more. she became so dependant on Carlton that she started to lose sight of her relationship with God. you see all along God was there through the pain and the laughter. he never left belle's side. he stood by her with arms wide open.a heart full of love. belle thought that she would never be good enough because of all the things she did. but God spoke gently to her belle my darling i love you i seen what you did and i know where i am taking you. belle fell to the ground and cried for she thought herself to be damaged and unreachable.
maybe your story is different from belle. or maybe you are in the same place that belle has been. the only way out is to really believe that God loves you. i know it sounds cliche. but when we realise just how much God loves us. we don't need all the guys in the world to emotionally fill up. we as men and woman all need Jesus. there is a longing to fill in the voids. the loneliness, we can trust Jesus. trust me i know about trust and I'm still learning...
anyways i think ill leave with this thought. "stand for something or fall for anything".
Jesus loves you this i know, for the bible tells me so. little ones to him belong we are weak and he is strong. yes Jesus loves you. the bible tells me so.
