"love is here"

                                   

      As  the  hard  days  have come and  gone. with each  moment passing is a new day closer  to  Jesus.  his  love for us never fails.  he will never stop loving us.  see it doesn't  matter  what  we have  done  nothing can separate his love for us. it's about  knowing god  for yourself.  knowing who you are in Christ,  when you stand  so secure in this you won't question  his  love for you.  the  places  where  you have  failed to trust will subside because you  know because you know because you know how much God  truly loves you.  
      I don't know what causes us to feel abandoned, feel  like God could never love us  for what  we have  done. I'm telling you reader how much God loves us.  we need to get this into our inners. we need to know that God's  love will never fail us.I wrote a song called                                     
                        Your Love
                         verse 1: 
                       for so long,
                       I've been waiting, 
                       waiting for you,
                       and now your here, 
                       ever so  close,
                       to my heart.
                          
                           chorus:
             your love never changes
             your love never fails me
             your love gives me peace
                   gives me peace 
                   it gives me peace


                            verse 2:
                        all my days
                        I've been hiding
                        hiding from you
                        and now you're here
                        how could I 
                        forget you










elz

plastic world

                                  Dear Reader
    for  some reason  i am  drawn to talking about  really hard  times.  recently i have been  running and hiding again and  you  would never know cause i wear this  plastic smile.  meanwhile  inside i have been  falling apart.  and  praying god  please  comfort me  please  break me free. I don't want to live like this any more.  I don't  want to be  angry  and broken  inside. I just want more of God. yet there  has been  some  walls  built up in my life. walls of miss trust walls of the  broken past. now  don't get me  wrong here  my life  has been great for the most part.  
    you  hide from everyone and every  day  you  wake up is  another day you  force another brave  face. another pretend smile to  get through the  day. asking  when  will life  ever  come around.  you blast your music loud. you  drink the sorrows away  you  do whatever to try and forget the hurts  that  are  slowly  over taking you. you carry this  heaviness  where ever you go. and  you  try to  say you are fine  but in matter of  fact  you  really aren't you  begin to isolate the ones that love you. you begin to hide in this place that  even you  don't  know where  you are heading.  inside you are  screaming will  anyone ever  see  the  real me  will  anyone  find  me. you  are  waiting to be  rescued.  waiting to be found. 
  I am  still here  but  day  by  day  god is  healing my  heart one  little  step  at a time. Michelle and i have this  joke  that Kari Kobe is  our  remedy music.  for me I'd  say  more so  tenth avenue  north. pretty  much  every  song of there's. by your side, healing begins, you are more, beloved its  like  every  song God is  singing his  words to my heart. and  with every tear drop that  falls is a moment  away  to  greater  healing on my heart.   now  you  might  be  thinking  that's great  for you  but  what about  me? you see......
                        
                                         

elz

not another valentines day

Dear Reader
     OK i know valentines day is  now come and gone  for this  year  any ways.  this  is a message that i  feel  i need to  speak to all of us  in relationships and all of us  that are single.  ill  share a few of my hardships. and a then  how God brings us  out, now you might  not like what you read... but let's  just be real for  a few moments.
 OK  last  night my brother Aaron spoke on relationships he  shared about how  when he was younger he would  dominate in hide and seek.  my sister and i could never find him.he always  had the  best places. this  one  day  he  decided to  hide in the dryer. as soon as he shut the door it was all dark and there was no light. he was a little uncomfortable  so he  decided to move a little. as he did  the dryer started to spin  he had a panic attack.  he  screamed  HELP ME. then i think i was the one who found him as soon as i opened that door  light appeared again.he  knew he was safe that he wasn't  stuck in the moment of darkness.  if  you  allow  the  darkness in  it  will  destroy your relationship.  let me  pain for you  what  darkness  looks like  using  something  i have just gone  through in the past  2 years.  this is something that  doesn't  come easy for me.  but i feel that  these  words will be just  enough to  bring light to those in the darkness right now. 
     Every relationship will either bring us closer or farther away from God.recently i fell  from  God nothing over  night it was kind of  this  gradual thing  happening.  it  started  from an  offence  that i was too  stubborn to  deal with. so  i turned to  guys and not God.  i haven't trusted many  because i haven't let God in  enough to take away  the  hardest places in  my  heart.  see i thought  that  guys would fill  this great  emptiness and void in my life.  in  1 week i lost  my way and  got  intimate with 2 different guys. neither of them talk to me again. so  for the past while i have been  struggling with why God? whats wrong with me i knew i was wrong but i seriously got so tired of being this good christian all the time.  truth is relationships in the dating sense will never fill you up only God can.I can tell you that  losing myself was never worth it. i tried  to run  and hide but i couldn't i thought about this god sees all and knows all.  every single  mistake and  screw up i have ever made and will  make he sees. I was never meant to  run from but run to Gods arms of grace.
    truth  is  i have  screwed many times and I'm sure ill  screw up again.  but i have  a  God who loves me no matter what. "Don't  part yourself with someone who pollutes you. when you date a guy/girl that doesn't believe  in God. it's going to be like going to war with your values. 
   I don't know where  you are at  right now.  maybe you are  beyond hu5rt and broken your world is crashing on in the inside.maybe  your  walk with God is barely  there. you place a brave face on  and  act  so strong but  inside there  is  huge  turmoil on  you  know where  you are at. you  know what  you face.  good news  so  does  God.
    you  are are loved you are so worth it. yes you you are worth it.  so  don't  give up now and don't give up on God he is worth  the  fight.  in the  darkest  of times only God can truly see you through. 
 i  know you  know this  and  get sick of hearing the  same thing.  but wait for Gods best for you. take the  time to  really enjoy  your  relationship  with God. because if your relationship with God is out of allignment your relationship with others will be too.  its a fact! do you  really  have to get  your  heart broken  just  to  realise how important God is in all  relationships.


elz

back up file

Dear Readers,
  have you  ever gone through hard  times. i mean they seem to top  the worst of the  worst.  you  know what's right  yet your flesh  rises up and in  any given moment  you  lose  control.  
 you  hear the  saying "you  play with  fire you  get  burned".  i  believe  this is a  form of  rebellion. and not  allowing God to  do what he needs to do in your or our lives.  you  wear a  plastic  smile and you  tell your self you are  all good and  you can handle just about anything but a  matter of fact you are on the  road to a major  crash and burn. you  know what's  right  but you  are  stuck under this  cloud of  darkness. God is  trying to real you  back in.  as if  to say  " I LOVE YOU". why is it  so hard to receive  this amazing love.  when you  are  on the fence. you are  fighting for this break through that  seems so very far away yet it's so close.
                                Zephaniah 3:17

                                                The Message (MSG)

                                        God Is Present Among You

                        ^16-17Jerusalem will be told:
                                 "Don't be afraid.
                                     Dear Zion,
                                 don't despair.
                     Your God is present among you,
                    a strong Warrior there to save you.
                   Happy to have you back, he'll calm you with his love
                         and delight you with his songs.

I know i struggle being comfortable in my  own  skin what i mean by this is  finding  who i really am. just when i think i know  then a new  battle  emerges from  deep within.  i know  that  we all go through these  seasons of challenges and pains.  why is that we know right  but we still do so wrong in this season.its because we are not  trusting and letting God take control over our mind will  and emotions. 

 how do you  break out of this i haven't really  figured  out  yet  but  if there is  one  thing for sure i know is that God can take any of our circumstances and bring us up on top.  so no matter what you are  going through  reader  know this you are not alone. you  have  purpose you have  destiny you can be set free.  

elz 

leaving the shadows

So it  has  occurred to me that  we  each have shadows  lurking  around especially  in the light.  now  where am i going with this  i guess you  will have  to  read to  find out........
  so  there  the  other night  i was in an all  worship service at a young adults service.  and God kept  bringing up shadows (come on now shadows!!!!) yes shadows  what  about  shadows i thought to myself.  God was like  "elz  there is so many shadows in churches today.  people  pretending and wearing these  shadows  to  take cover  to who they really  are.. how  true is that?  i mean  we go through this I  want to be  accepted  faze. we want to be liked  so much that we take cover and hide the  real us. this is  what i call the  shadow. why do we feel  so inadequate i wander?
  there is such a search for  significance to belong  to  know who we are,  yet  the truth is in front of us  the truth is  in gods word his promises  his truth.Are you  having the  fight of your  life?  your  relationships  are going  blah and your  life  just seems so stalemate.  the past  year has been  kind of like that for me.  i have been  fighting to find my place.  fighting  when all strength is gone and praying  for someone to offer  strength to  carry  me through the toughest   seasons. 
  I  don't  talk to you  as to  try and tell you  who you  have to be  but to  watch out  for  the  shadows the pretentious minded.  you  see we  get caught in our pretentious  mind set.  i  don't know how many times i have believed that the  realest  of the  real  sides of me would come out of hiding.  are you with me i mean i know that I'm not alone in this. we  kind of have this place in all of us  where sometimes the shadows are  what  we choose  what we feel the  emotions.
  when we make  dumb  choices the  shadows begin to take over  i know that  sounds  off perhaps  but the shadows  represent the enemy.  at least  in this  blog that's  what  i mean by shadows.  
who  you  going to follow  Gods truth or  the  shadows that will  toss you  to and  fro with every passing  wind?


elz