Dear Reader's
I'd like to dedicate this blog to those of us starting in a new relationship or thinking about being in one. or maybe you are single and are envying those of us in relationships.
First of all i would like to clear this up relationships are not a fairytale. in february i met my boyfriend. our first date was march 1st. i remember it as if it was yesterday. I showed up early and as i waited at tim hortons for kenneth to show up i played games on my phone. then there was a moment as i looked up and saw him. i thought oh my gosh i must be in a dream, this guy is the best looking man i have ever seen. an hour felt like eternity talking to kenneth the laughter the smiles. i knew i wanted to see this guy again. as i got home later that night he called to check that i was home safe. i knew that night that we would date it was a matter of time. in a process of over a month we took things fast. to me this is normal a guy must like me if things are fast paced. on april 11 2013 kenneth and i started dating. at this time he was in school for enviromental engineering just preaparing for exams. so for 2 or 3 weeks when we first started dating we did not talk.for me that was torture cause one of my love languages is quality time. since we had started dating its not been an easy go. there is times we dont speak at all. i do not enjoy the silence. yet it is in the silence I find God speaking to the depths of my heart. I have not seen kenneth for a while now. he moved an hour and a half away. to be honest the old me would of thrown the towel in by now, the holy spirit is speaking to me alot through this. like who is control of the relationship him or I?
To be honest I believe that this is a time where God is building the foundations of this relationship. its all about God not kenneth and I. sure we would love to be with each other more, enjoying each others presence. but right now we have to work through things and let Gods will be done in this relationship. the easy part is seeing each other the hard part is not knowing when we will see each other next, not knowing when we will have time for each other. to be honest this relationship is a huge faith builder. I cannot depend on kenneth's strengths alone. If God is first in this then I must epend on him not kenneth. if my thoughts are more about kenneth then God then i am placing kenneth on a pedastal of being better then God. this is not how a relationship works. if God is truly first in this relationship it is God that has to be placed higher then everything . since when does a relationship that is centred on God become all about what i want. all about me.... this is a selfish mindset. what is it that God wants of us.... i truly believe that God has a huge destiny and i have to learn these important things now for God takes us through Hard stuff so we can grow and change. its not fun but its worth it. If I talked to kenneth daily i would personally become emotionally dependant on him and thats not fair. it is in the silence that God draws closest to us.
I hope this makes sense to you. for those of you who are single it pays to be gracious and patient. God is your husband i know right it's not the same as a human man haha but he has your best interest in mind he will never fail you never hurt you. you can trust God with your heart. for those of you just starting a relationship. it's cool to take things slow. not to rush into things that you invest so much time and energy into. It is important not to rush anything having a solid foundation makes a difference when the hard times come and you dont want to love that person. as well it is healthy to talk to other couples who are older for advice. you know keep accountable. as well never be afraid to talk about things. girls if your guy does something that you really love dont be afraid to tell him and if he does something that you dont like dont be afraid to tell him either. He will appreciate you more in the long run.
Elz:)
Friday, 21 June 2013
Tuesday, 26 February 2013
what does love look like?
Dear Reader,
How are you really doing today? there's a song on my mind by misty Edwards "arms wide open" before i get Going to much lets take some time to really listen to the words. what does love look like?
For some of us we honestly can't answer this what does love look like?we truly live life not knowing the answer. not knowing who we really are. not knowing our purpose in life. we live in the moment we live by what others tell us. we live for so many things but where does God's true love fit into this? i want to share with you something forming deep in my heart.
the past week God has been pouring his love all over me. teaching me who i really am.see my whole life i lived to get married and you know that need for a guy. but the best part about being single is simple you don't need a guy to tell you who you are. your identity doesn't come from what you do or the guy you are with. true identity comes from God. there's so much i could write on this topic in itself but today we are writing about what does love look like? what is love... in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7.
maybe you are reading this and you are one that you have been told i love you so many times and every time it just feel so empty. you ask yourself why can't i let someone really love me. maybe you are hurting so bad inside you just went through a really messy break up and this message is the last thing that you want to hear. instead you hide inside and pretend like everything is all good. but inside you are broken and just wishing secretly someone would reach out and save you from your self. i pray that these words would change your broken heart.that God loves you flawless. its never too late for you. Gods love is not empty. it's full of tenderness, kindness, compassion.God is not out to hurt you like others. He loves everything about you. you are worth it Reader.
How are you really doing today? there's a song on my mind by misty Edwards "arms wide open" before i get Going to much lets take some time to really listen to the words. what does love look like?
the past week God has been pouring his love all over me. teaching me who i really am.see my whole life i lived to get married and you know that need for a guy. but the best part about being single is simple you don't need a guy to tell you who you are. your identity doesn't come from what you do or the guy you are with. true identity comes from God. there's so much i could write on this topic in itself but today we are writing about what does love look like? what is love... in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7.
maybe you are reading this and you are one that you have been told i love you so many times and every time it just feel so empty. you ask yourself why can't i let someone really love me. maybe you are hurting so bad inside you just went through a really messy break up and this message is the last thing that you want to hear. instead you hide inside and pretend like everything is all good. but inside you are broken and just wishing secretly someone would reach out and save you from your self. i pray that these words would change your broken heart.that God loves you flawless. its never too late for you. Gods love is not empty. it's full of tenderness, kindness, compassion.God is not out to hurt you like others. He loves everything about you. you are worth it Reader.
Friday, 22 February 2013
finding love
Dear Reader,
How are you doing? do ever have days where you feel so close yet so far away?
My whole life i have made it my mission get married and have children. in fact i had to make it a competition with my mom. she was married at 21. so at 19 i was like yes I'm going to find me a man and marry him yeah i found a guy but nothing happened, at 21 i was like this is my year. again it didn't happen again at 23 and 25 and nope i didn't get married. it's kind of funny looking back but all you single ladies out there know what I'm talking about. cause you have or are still building yourself up for Mr right!!!in a sense you place yourself on a time line for when you want to get married. if you aren't careful. the desire to get married will overtake you. i know it sounds crazy but trust me not too long ago i was that girl. chasing guys but never waiting on God the perfect gentlemen. thinking if i don't find someone they will never come. crazy so you might think. but how many of us are like that?
I have come to a place where I don't need a man to tell me he loves me. if i cant love myself how can i ever let a man love me? do you love yourself? when you look into the mirror and see yourself what is the first thought that comes to you? young woman you are most beautiful there is nothing at all wrong with you.it's time to see who God has painted you to look like.
1. you are beautiful.
2. you are worth fighting for
3. you are most valuable there is no one that will ever be exactly you
4. you are worthy. it doesn't matter what your past holds let it go. i know that's hard it took me what seemed like a life time to let go and let God
5. you are 100% original
6. you are lovely
7. you are precious a diamond in the rough.
the list could go on. as you begin to speak life to yourself something begins to change in your life.
in order to find love you must first love God and love yourself.then watch when you are not looking the right man who will lead you not pressure you he will come. as woman we are not meant to hunt for our men we are to be pursued. so wait and let god work on you a little longer.
Elz
How are you doing? do ever have days where you feel so close yet so far away?
My whole life i have made it my mission get married and have children. in fact i had to make it a competition with my mom. she was married at 21. so at 19 i was like yes I'm going to find me a man and marry him yeah i found a guy but nothing happened, at 21 i was like this is my year. again it didn't happen again at 23 and 25 and nope i didn't get married. it's kind of funny looking back but all you single ladies out there know what I'm talking about. cause you have or are still building yourself up for Mr right!!!in a sense you place yourself on a time line for when you want to get married. if you aren't careful. the desire to get married will overtake you. i know it sounds crazy but trust me not too long ago i was that girl. chasing guys but never waiting on God the perfect gentlemen. thinking if i don't find someone they will never come. crazy so you might think. but how many of us are like that?
I have come to a place where I don't need a man to tell me he loves me. if i cant love myself how can i ever let a man love me? do you love yourself? when you look into the mirror and see yourself what is the first thought that comes to you? young woman you are most beautiful there is nothing at all wrong with you.it's time to see who God has painted you to look like.
1. you are beautiful.
2. you are worth fighting for
3. you are most valuable there is no one that will ever be exactly you
4. you are worthy. it doesn't matter what your past holds let it go. i know that's hard it took me what seemed like a life time to let go and let God
5. you are 100% original
6. you are lovely
7. you are precious a diamond in the rough.
the list could go on. as you begin to speak life to yourself something begins to change in your life.
in order to find love you must first love God and love yourself.then watch when you are not looking the right man who will lead you not pressure you he will come. as woman we are not meant to hunt for our men we are to be pursued. so wait and let god work on you a little longer.
Elz
Thursday, 3 January 2013
falling to peices
Dear Reader,
How have you been? Here is a topic that can be tricky. we face a society of people pleasers. people longing to be accepted. doing whatever it takes to feel adequacy of the heart. trying so hard to be something fit into society we miss out on the true heart of things.
for the first time in a long time this is a topic so dear to me. but its hard to write about for some reason. you see i don't want to write about what you want to hear. i don't want to pretend anymore. so here i am going to be real and raw.
so many of us are going through hard things i mean its hard tough stuff. and for most of our lives we have been told not to talk about it. so here we are we are aching to speak up and say what's real. but how can we start to talk about the real deal heart issues. maybe it starts here and maybe it doesn't. but let me try and use my voice to build all of us up.
it was a summer day and the sun shining brighter then the days past. thoughts of Jonah running through her mind. how determined she was to marry him. after all they had so much in common. something you have to know about belle once she got something in her mind she wouldn't stop till she got it. then when Jonah came along they became so close. he was shy belle was enthusiastic a dreamer. belle knew she had a good thing. he would take his time and wait while belle would go about adventure and try and rush timing. both very simple in there own way. this carried on for quite awhile then one day belle and Jonah had a fight and things changed. slowly and seemingly there conversations came to a mute so to speak. belle decided out of anger that she'd teach Jonah a lesson so she found any guy who would love her. and show interest she began to lose herself. one kiss at a time. she smiled on the outside as if nothing happened. but she kept compromising her heart her identity in guys who never wanted anything but sex. belle was to focused on pleasing the temporal fix, she lost sight of the good in her life. she fell hard. and thought she had no one to turn too.then Alexander came and he showed her love. he was the man who spoke love. but when it came to time. he never had time for belle. she started to get frustrated and think that Alexander didn't care about her. yet he tried to reach out to her, but as determined and damaged as belle had become.she broke up with Alexander she started to form so much anger towards men. again on the outside she played the part of good. inside she was falling to pieces. just wanted to be loved and comforted.she again started looking everywhere for love in the background. she met another guy at a special event. he was very tall dark and handsome. belle was immediately connected to Carlton. Carlton brought a new smile upon belle's face. she thought Carlton would be the perfect cover. belle would forget her hurt and fool around with Carlton. it brought momentarily affection that could not erase how belle really felt inside. so belle stopped talking to Carlton for a while and thought that not talking would solve her problem. but it didn't. it made her miss and want Carlton more. she became so dependant on Carlton that she started to lose sight of her relationship with God. you see all along God was there through the pain and the laughter. he never left belle's side. he stood by her with arms wide open.a heart full of love. belle thought that she would never be good enough because of all the things she did. but God spoke gently to her belle my darling i love you i seen what you did and i know where i am taking you. belle fell to the ground and cried for she thought herself to be damaged and unreachable.
maybe your story is different from belle. or maybe you are in the same place that belle has been. the only way out is to really believe that God loves you. i know it sounds cliche. but when we realise just how much God loves us. we don't need all the guys in the world to emotionally fill up. we as men and woman all need Jesus. there is a longing to fill in the voids. the loneliness, we can trust Jesus. trust me i know about trust and I'm still learning...
anyways i think ill leave with this thought. "stand for something or fall for anything".
Jesus loves you this i know, for the bible tells me so. little ones to him belong we are weak and he is strong. yes Jesus loves you. the bible tells me so.
elz
How have you been? Here is a topic that can be tricky. we face a society of people pleasers. people longing to be accepted. doing whatever it takes to feel adequacy of the heart. trying so hard to be something fit into society we miss out on the true heart of things.
for the first time in a long time this is a topic so dear to me. but its hard to write about for some reason. you see i don't want to write about what you want to hear. i don't want to pretend anymore. so here i am going to be real and raw.
so many of us are going through hard things i mean its hard tough stuff. and for most of our lives we have been told not to talk about it. so here we are we are aching to speak up and say what's real. but how can we start to talk about the real deal heart issues. maybe it starts here and maybe it doesn't. but let me try and use my voice to build all of us up.
it was a summer day and the sun shining brighter then the days past. thoughts of Jonah running through her mind. how determined she was to marry him. after all they had so much in common. something you have to know about belle once she got something in her mind she wouldn't stop till she got it. then when Jonah came along they became so close. he was shy belle was enthusiastic a dreamer. belle knew she had a good thing. he would take his time and wait while belle would go about adventure and try and rush timing. both very simple in there own way. this carried on for quite awhile then one day belle and Jonah had a fight and things changed. slowly and seemingly there conversations came to a mute so to speak. belle decided out of anger that she'd teach Jonah a lesson so she found any guy who would love her. and show interest she began to lose herself. one kiss at a time. she smiled on the outside as if nothing happened. but she kept compromising her heart her identity in guys who never wanted anything but sex. belle was to focused on pleasing the temporal fix, she lost sight of the good in her life. she fell hard. and thought she had no one to turn too.then Alexander came and he showed her love. he was the man who spoke love. but when it came to time. he never had time for belle. she started to get frustrated and think that Alexander didn't care about her. yet he tried to reach out to her, but as determined and damaged as belle had become.she broke up with Alexander she started to form so much anger towards men. again on the outside she played the part of good. inside she was falling to pieces. just wanted to be loved and comforted.she again started looking everywhere for love in the background. she met another guy at a special event. he was very tall dark and handsome. belle was immediately connected to Carlton. Carlton brought a new smile upon belle's face. she thought Carlton would be the perfect cover. belle would forget her hurt and fool around with Carlton. it brought momentarily affection that could not erase how belle really felt inside. so belle stopped talking to Carlton for a while and thought that not talking would solve her problem. but it didn't. it made her miss and want Carlton more. she became so dependant on Carlton that she started to lose sight of her relationship with God. you see all along God was there through the pain and the laughter. he never left belle's side. he stood by her with arms wide open.a heart full of love. belle thought that she would never be good enough because of all the things she did. but God spoke gently to her belle my darling i love you i seen what you did and i know where i am taking you. belle fell to the ground and cried for she thought herself to be damaged and unreachable.
maybe your story is different from belle. or maybe you are in the same place that belle has been. the only way out is to really believe that God loves you. i know it sounds cliche. but when we realise just how much God loves us. we don't need all the guys in the world to emotionally fill up. we as men and woman all need Jesus. there is a longing to fill in the voids. the loneliness, we can trust Jesus. trust me i know about trust and I'm still learning...
anyways i think ill leave with this thought. "stand for something or fall for anything".
Jesus loves you this i know, for the bible tells me so. little ones to him belong we are weak and he is strong. yes Jesus loves you. the bible tells me so.
Wednesday, 12 September 2012
detoured
Dear Reader's,
Where to start. well let's pretend we are going to a destination. you can choose where you want to go!
Imagine if you will we start off to our destination. let's say we are going to Florida the sunshine state. we start off driving of course we are using a gps. and for safe measures a road map. so we start off and everything is going great, we are off to a good start making good time. then you are on the I75 inner state highway driving through Detroit.all of a sudden your tire goes flat. so now your schedule is thrown off. you have to find a spare tire and or the nearest auto repair shop. this throws off your timing. you are now in a set back and delay. you are feeling a little frustrated like really why didn't someone check the tires before we left? but that's OK we still have time we can get back on the road and still make up some timing. after waiting for an hour for the road side assistance to come to your aide and fix your tire. at this time everyone is a little more then anxious. you start on your way again determined to make up time. after a few more hours with a few pit stops here and there along the way. you are with in an hour or 2 to reaching your destination. and all of a sudden you hit a construction zone. and i mean traffic is lined up you look at the line and try to find a way out of it. but there is no way to escape this construction zone. you wait another another and finally you are at stand point. you are next to pass in the construction zone. you get past this zone and you are starting to see palm trees. you are getting more and more excited. you are now minutes within your destination.
this sounds like a crazy scenario right!!!! see sometimes our life is like this. we have this plan for our life. we are doing well we are making good timing everything is great. then all of sudden you hit a really hard spot and you are then temporarily detoured. some people you take longer to get out of this detour. then you get over it. and again things are fine everything is great again then all of a sudden one thing after another next thing you know it your life is spinning out of control. while you are waiting for the construction God is really trying to rebuild and restore you. but let's get real here do we really like to wait? when we see things right in front of us. sometimes we are so close to our destination but yet so far from God! why? is that cause we didn't want to trust him, we didn't want to give him time to really work out all things in our lives and in the background. we are to anxious almost as if we place God on a time line if you don't do what i want now then i will shut you out i will be angry with you God. when clearly the bible says if he is for us then who can be against us.
where are you on your destination are you in the good times or the bad? know this that God will always make a way so just trust him. i know this seems like a foreign concept!
Elz
Where to start. well let's pretend we are going to a destination. you can choose where you want to go!
Imagine if you will we start off to our destination. let's say we are going to Florida the sunshine state. we start off driving of course we are using a gps. and for safe measures a road map. so we start off and everything is going great, we are off to a good start making good time. then you are on the I75 inner state highway driving through Detroit.all of a sudden your tire goes flat. so now your schedule is thrown off. you have to find a spare tire and or the nearest auto repair shop. this throws off your timing. you are now in a set back and delay. you are feeling a little frustrated like really why didn't someone check the tires before we left? but that's OK we still have time we can get back on the road and still make up some timing. after waiting for an hour for the road side assistance to come to your aide and fix your tire. at this time everyone is a little more then anxious. you start on your way again determined to make up time. after a few more hours with a few pit stops here and there along the way. you are with in an hour or 2 to reaching your destination. and all of a sudden you hit a construction zone. and i mean traffic is lined up you look at the line and try to find a way out of it. but there is no way to escape this construction zone. you wait another another and finally you are at stand point. you are next to pass in the construction zone. you get past this zone and you are starting to see palm trees. you are getting more and more excited. you are now minutes within your destination.
this sounds like a crazy scenario right!!!! see sometimes our life is like this. we have this plan for our life. we are doing well we are making good timing everything is great. then all of sudden you hit a really hard spot and you are then temporarily detoured. some people you take longer to get out of this detour. then you get over it. and again things are fine everything is great again then all of a sudden one thing after another next thing you know it your life is spinning out of control. while you are waiting for the construction God is really trying to rebuild and restore you. but let's get real here do we really like to wait? when we see things right in front of us. sometimes we are so close to our destination but yet so far from God! why? is that cause we didn't want to trust him, we didn't want to give him time to really work out all things in our lives and in the background. we are to anxious almost as if we place God on a time line if you don't do what i want now then i will shut you out i will be angry with you God. when clearly the bible says if he is for us then who can be against us.
where are you on your destination are you in the good times or the bad? know this that God will always make a way so just trust him. i know this seems like a foreign concept!
Elz
Monday, 27 August 2012
Picking up the leftover's
Dear Reader's,
There is much i can speak on in this area, i just want to share a piece of my heart with you. my version of leftovers are not the food you couldn't eat last night so you put it in the fridge to eat later. leftovers are the ones who feel like Miss fits, the victims of being picked on bullied those that feel inadequate. those who feel like rejects, those looked passed and who feel invisible.
Right now let's talk to those trying to figure out who you are. maybe you are heading off to yet another year of school and you are dreading it. or maybe you feel like a stranger in your own home. like if they even knew what i am facing maybe they wouldn't love me. or maybe you are a a new person and you are shy and don't know how to fit in with people so you act different to try and feel cool. maybe you are dating a guy and he's all wrong for you. or you are the guy who has thoughts of failure, you just want your dad to be proud of you.or you are the brother or sister who always fits in the shadows of your older siblings. or maybe you have hidden secrets and it's starting to catch up with you.
young man and young woman where ever you are no matter what you are going through know this you are never alone.i have felt all of the above at times. and thought if people only knew what i was really going through would i be put on judgement. would i be doomed a disease of some sort would i fall into a pit of failure. all these thoughts are real right? but they are also all lies. the kind of lie that sounds so good that it seems true. the kinda that make you believe that you are not good enough that you are just a Miss fit and you will always be a reject. you know those lies i know cause i have believed them to. but today in this moment in this hour i want to give you some hope. i want to tell you how much God truly loves you. i know some of you have lost hope of love. you have been hurt so bad that to you love isn't real. people have Miss used it so much on you that you can't love anymore.you have grown empty and cold. then there's those that know you are loved but can't receive it from the over play of "love" love has a different meaning to you. its in the form of sex and if you don't do what you're bf says then you will never be loved. so you cave in every time. you try and fight it but every time you see the guy you get weak and lose your confidence, you give into what he wants cause that is how you think he loves you. but inside you are striving to feel loved for you. you know what he is doing is wrong and yet you fall again and again cause your mind tells you if you don't stick with him then no one will ever accept you. that you lose your value. that you are unworthy of love. that is also a big fat lie. young woman you are loved flawless, you are worthy. i know how much courage it takes to stand up to those lies. for the past month and a half i have believed those same lies. if I don't give into what he wants will anyone ever see me love me. I am telling you on a woman to woman level here. it hurts to think we have no value, when God is trying to get our attention to say hey I adore you, I love you, I choose you, I will fight for you. when you believe those lies for so long we begin to sell ourselves short. now to you young man, yeah you! you know who you are. you have been hiding for along time. you know what's right but there is these lies that you have been listening to, you want to be popular just to feel accepted for your dad to see the real man that you are becoming. to just have someone know that things aren't as good as they seem. so you turn to things to fill in that void in your life.God loves you young man where you are at.i know you feel like you have to be tough. and maybe i am completely off. but i am speaking from a heart of someone who has fell victim to many things in my life. and the way to change the mind sets the thoughts we are listening to is surrender to God. living for God is going to be hard rest assured. but i promise you this young man young woman it is worth it.
I just want to finish with a quick prayer. if any of this resonates with you please let me now and id love to pray more or even just here your story if you so desire. and if you don't know Jesus then let me know and id love to share more of my story with you. young man and young woman you are worth more then you can ever imagine.if nothing else hear this God loves you no matter what it is never to late.God is never to far.
Dear Jesus I pray that every single beating heart that reads this will be touched and find you in new ways, Jesus draw near to us your children, bring breakthrough in areas that we don't even know about, Jesus remove off the offended hearts, let them know how much you love them where they are.
Elz
There is much i can speak on in this area, i just want to share a piece of my heart with you. my version of leftovers are not the food you couldn't eat last night so you put it in the fridge to eat later. leftovers are the ones who feel like Miss fits, the victims of being picked on bullied those that feel inadequate. those who feel like rejects, those looked passed and who feel invisible.
Right now let's talk to those trying to figure out who you are. maybe you are heading off to yet another year of school and you are dreading it. or maybe you feel like a stranger in your own home. like if they even knew what i am facing maybe they wouldn't love me. or maybe you are a a new person and you are shy and don't know how to fit in with people so you act different to try and feel cool. maybe you are dating a guy and he's all wrong for you. or you are the guy who has thoughts of failure, you just want your dad to be proud of you.or you are the brother or sister who always fits in the shadows of your older siblings. or maybe you have hidden secrets and it's starting to catch up with you.
young man and young woman where ever you are no matter what you are going through know this you are never alone.i have felt all of the above at times. and thought if people only knew what i was really going through would i be put on judgement. would i be doomed a disease of some sort would i fall into a pit of failure. all these thoughts are real right? but they are also all lies. the kind of lie that sounds so good that it seems true. the kinda that make you believe that you are not good enough that you are just a Miss fit and you will always be a reject. you know those lies i know cause i have believed them to. but today in this moment in this hour i want to give you some hope. i want to tell you how much God truly loves you. i know some of you have lost hope of love. you have been hurt so bad that to you love isn't real. people have Miss used it so much on you that you can't love anymore.you have grown empty and cold. then there's those that know you are loved but can't receive it from the over play of "love" love has a different meaning to you. its in the form of sex and if you don't do what you're bf says then you will never be loved. so you cave in every time. you try and fight it but every time you see the guy you get weak and lose your confidence, you give into what he wants cause that is how you think he loves you. but inside you are striving to feel loved for you. you know what he is doing is wrong and yet you fall again and again cause your mind tells you if you don't stick with him then no one will ever accept you. that you lose your value. that you are unworthy of love. that is also a big fat lie. young woman you are loved flawless, you are worthy. i know how much courage it takes to stand up to those lies. for the past month and a half i have believed those same lies. if I don't give into what he wants will anyone ever see me love me. I am telling you on a woman to woman level here. it hurts to think we have no value, when God is trying to get our attention to say hey I adore you, I love you, I choose you, I will fight for you. when you believe those lies for so long we begin to sell ourselves short. now to you young man, yeah you! you know who you are. you have been hiding for along time. you know what's right but there is these lies that you have been listening to, you want to be popular just to feel accepted for your dad to see the real man that you are becoming. to just have someone know that things aren't as good as they seem. so you turn to things to fill in that void in your life.God loves you young man where you are at.i know you feel like you have to be tough. and maybe i am completely off. but i am speaking from a heart of someone who has fell victim to many things in my life. and the way to change the mind sets the thoughts we are listening to is surrender to God. living for God is going to be hard rest assured. but i promise you this young man young woman it is worth it.
I just want to finish with a quick prayer. if any of this resonates with you please let me now and id love to pray more or even just here your story if you so desire. and if you don't know Jesus then let me know and id love to share more of my story with you. young man and young woman you are worth more then you can ever imagine.if nothing else hear this God loves you no matter what it is never to late.God is never to far.
Dear Jesus I pray that every single beating heart that reads this will be touched and find you in new ways, Jesus draw near to us your children, bring breakthrough in areas that we don't even know about, Jesus remove off the offended hearts, let them know how much you love them where they are.
Elz
Friday, 17 August 2012
out of the darkness comes a light
Dear Readers,
Have you ever gone through a really dry time in life. just when you think you are good then something comes again. like a flash flood. now i realise that we are all at different walks seasons in our lives. so this may or may not apply to you.
Out of the darkest times in my life through measures of chaos and discontent God has showed up every time. this might be crazy but i am at work just watching my clear water bottle it has this filter thing where water drips. but there is a big drop and i keep anticipating it's fall as if that's what it should do right? but this drop gets bigger and bigger and it's not falling almost more water gravitates to it. and when i stopped focusing on this drop that's when it fell. see when you focuss on so much of whats wrong in your life you get caught up in the wrong but when you really release those things that hold you back that hold you captive to your own self. it's like "water off a ducks back." you just let it go and it's like nothing. now let's be real for a moment.when darkness comes in our lives we don't always notice it. it comes through choices we make and decisions and mindsets. often times we don't even know how we come across.
just last weekend one of my best friends put me in my place and told me elz you have been so fake so judgemental and i haven't been able to talk to you about real things. it was like stripping a mask of darkness off. and showing me just how i have been to so many. it's so easy to want to change everyone else and see there flaws but what about you? what you are doing is limiting your connection and so that other person feels like they have to deceive you. lets just take this darkness off please and get real with what's going on in our lives. we are the light of the world a city on a hill cannot be hidden from us. take off the masks its OK to be vulnerable sometimes. we all have problems we all have stuff. so know this you are not alone. even in the worst of the worst God loves you. he cares so much for you. so whatever it is that is causing darkness in your life let it go, cause i bet you want peace you feel angry you have all these emotions that you can't explain. take some layers off don't let the water drop get to big before it falls. deal with the struggles in your life before it gets worse and you flee from everything good , pure, noble and right in your life. trust me it is not worth it. i have been through so much and it hurts you more in the end.
Hope this speaks to you
Elz
Have you ever gone through a really dry time in life. just when you think you are good then something comes again. like a flash flood. now i realise that we are all at different walks seasons in our lives. so this may or may not apply to you.
Out of the darkest times in my life through measures of chaos and discontent God has showed up every time. this might be crazy but i am at work just watching my clear water bottle it has this filter thing where water drips. but there is a big drop and i keep anticipating it's fall as if that's what it should do right? but this drop gets bigger and bigger and it's not falling almost more water gravitates to it. and when i stopped focusing on this drop that's when it fell. see when you focuss on so much of whats wrong in your life you get caught up in the wrong but when you really release those things that hold you back that hold you captive to your own self. it's like "water off a ducks back." you just let it go and it's like nothing. now let's be real for a moment.when darkness comes in our lives we don't always notice it. it comes through choices we make and decisions and mindsets. often times we don't even know how we come across.
just last weekend one of my best friends put me in my place and told me elz you have been so fake so judgemental and i haven't been able to talk to you about real things. it was like stripping a mask of darkness off. and showing me just how i have been to so many. it's so easy to want to change everyone else and see there flaws but what about you? what you are doing is limiting your connection and so that other person feels like they have to deceive you. lets just take this darkness off please and get real with what's going on in our lives. we are the light of the world a city on a hill cannot be hidden from us. take off the masks its OK to be vulnerable sometimes. we all have problems we all have stuff. so know this you are not alone. even in the worst of the worst God loves you. he cares so much for you. so whatever it is that is causing darkness in your life let it go, cause i bet you want peace you feel angry you have all these emotions that you can't explain. take some layers off don't let the water drop get to big before it falls. deal with the struggles in your life before it gets worse and you flee from everything good , pure, noble and right in your life. trust me it is not worth it. i have been through so much and it hurts you more in the end.
Hope this speaks to you
Elz
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