Picking up the leftover's

Dear Reader's,
  There  is much i can speak on in this area, i just  want to share a piece of my heart with you. my version of leftovers are not the food you  couldn't eat last night so you put it in the fridge to eat later. leftovers are the ones who feel like Miss fits, the victims of being picked on bullied those that feel  inadequate. those who feel like rejects, those looked passed and who feel invisible.
  Right now  let's  talk to those trying to figure out who you are. maybe you are heading off to yet another year of school and you are dreading it. or maybe you feel like a stranger in your own home. like if  they  even knew what i am facing  maybe they  wouldn't love me. or maybe you are a a new person and  you are  shy and don't  know how to  fit in  with people so you  act different  to try and feel cool. maybe you   are  dating a guy and he's all wrong for you. or you are  the guy  who  has thoughts of  failure, you just  want your  dad  to be  proud of you.or you are the brother or sister who always fits  in the shadows of your older siblings.  or maybe  you have  hidden  secrets and it's  starting to catch up with you.  
  young man and young woman where ever you are  no matter  what  you are going through know this  you are  never alone.i have  felt  all of the above at times. and thought  if people only knew  what i was really going through would i  be  put on judgement. would i be doomed a disease of some sort would i  fall into a pit of failure.  all these  thoughts are real right? but they are also all lies. the kind of lie that sounds so good that it seems  true. the  kinda  that  make you  believe  that you are  not  good enough that you are  just a Miss fit and you will always  be  a reject. you  know those lies i know cause i have believed them to. but today  in this  moment  in this  hour i want to  give you  some hope. i want to  tell you  how much God truly loves you. i know some of you have lost  hope of love. you have been hurt so bad that to you  love isn't real. people have  Miss used it so much on you that  you can't  love anymore.you  have grown empty and cold. then  there's  those that  know  you are loved but can't  receive it from  the over play of "love" love has a different meaning to you.  its in the form of  sex and  if you  don't do what  you're bf  says  then you  will never  be loved. so you cave in every time. you try and fight it but every time you  see the  guy  you get weak and  lose your  confidence, you  give into what  he wants  cause that is how you  think he loves you. but  inside  you are striving to feel  loved  for you. you know what  he is doing is  wrong and  yet  you fall  again and again  cause your mind tells you  if you  don't stick with him then no one will ever  accept you.  that you  lose your value.  that you are unworthy  of love.  that  is also  a big  fat  lie.  young  woman you are loved flawless,  you  are  worthy. i know how much  courage  it takes to stand up to those  lies. for the  past  month and a half i have believed those same lies. if I  don't  give into  what he  wants  will anyone ever see me  love me. I am telling you  on a  woman to woman level here.  it  hurts to  think we have  no value,  when God is  trying to get our attention to say  hey  I adore you, I love you, I choose you, I will fight for you. when you  believe those lies for so long we begin to sell ourselves short. now to you  young man, yeah you!  you  know who you are. you have been  hiding  for along time.  you  know  what's  right  but  there  is  these  lies that  you  have been listening to,  you  want to  be popular just to feel accepted for your  dad to  see  the real man that you are becoming. to just  have  someone  know that  things aren't as good as they seem. so you  turn to things to  fill in that  void in your life.God loves you young man where you are at.i  know you  feel like you  have to be tough. and maybe  i am completely  off.  but  i am speaking  from a heart of someone who has  fell victim to many things in my life.  and   the  way to  change  the  mind sets the  thoughts we are listening to is surrender to God. living for God is  going to be hard rest  assured.  but i promise  you this  young man  young woman  it is worth it.
    I just  want to  finish  with a  quick prayer.  if any of this resonates with you  please  let me now and id love to pray more  or  even  just  here  your  story if you  so desire. and if you  don't  know  Jesus  then  let me know and id love to share more of my story  with you.  young man  and young woman you are worth  more then  you  can ever imagine.if  nothing  else hear this  God  loves you  no matter  what it is never to late.God is never  to far.

Dear Jesus I  pray  that  every  single beating heart that reads this will be touched and find  you in  new  ways,  Jesus  draw  near to us  your  children,  bring breakthrough in areas that we don't even know about, Jesus  remove off the offended hearts, let them know how much you  love them  where  they are.

Elz

out of the darkness comes a light

Dear Readers,

    Have you  ever  gone through a really dry  time in life. just  when you think you are good  then  something  comes again.  like a flash  flood.  now  i  realise that we are all at  different walks  seasons in our lives. so this may or may not apply to you.
     Out of the darkest times in my life  through measures of  chaos and  discontent God has showed up every time. this might  be  crazy but i am at work  just  watching my clear water bottle it  has this  filter thing where  water  drips. but there is a  big drop  and i keep anticipating it's  fall  as if that's  what  it should do right? but this drop gets bigger and bigger and it's  not falling almost more water  gravitates to it. and when i stopped  focusing on this drop that's  when it fell. see  when you  focuss on  so much of whats wrong in your  life   you get  caught up in the  wrong but when you  really  release  those things that  hold you  back that hold you  captive to your own self. it's like  "water off a ducks back." you  just  let it go and it's like nothing. now let's be real for a moment.when  darkness comes  in our lives  we  don't always  notice it. it comes through  choices we make and  decisions and  mindsets. often times  we  don't even  know  how we come across.
  just  last weekend  one of  my best friends  put me in my place and  told me elz you  have been  so fake  so  judgemental and i haven't  been able to talk to you  about  real things.  it was like  stripping  a mask of  darkness off. and showing me just how i have been to  so many.  it's  so easy to  want to  change  everyone else and see there  flaws  but what  about you?  what you are doing is  limiting your  connection and  so that other  person feels  like they have to  deceive you.  lets  just  take this darkness off please and get real with  what's going on in our lives. we are the  light  of the  world a city on a hill cannot be hidden from us. take  off the masks its OK  to be  vulnerable sometimes.  we all  have  problems  we all have  stuff.  so  know this  you are  not alone.  even in the  worst of the worst God loves you.  he  cares so much for you.  so whatever  it is that is causing darkness in your  life  let it go,  cause i  bet you want peace  you  feel angry you have all these  emotions that you can't explain. take some layers off  don't let  the  water drop  get to  big  before it falls.  deal with the  struggles  in your  life before it gets worse and  you flee from everything good , pure, noble and right in your life.  trust me it  is not worth it.  i have been  through so much and it hurts you  more in the end.


Hope  this speaks to you

Elz