Hey Reader's,
How are you doing today? there is so many different ways to looks at G.E.M.S there is a christian organisation usually found in the missionary churches or maybe baptists called gems. i can't recall what it stands for at the moment.today we are going to write a different take on gems.
you know that for every month there is a different gem stone. I'm not to fond of my birth stone colour. I always wanted the pretty one like September march or December. where as topaz for November to some is very beautiful to me its boring! you will see here in a moment just where i am going with this. OK so every month has a specific gem. each unique each planned. I am a November baby holla at me November babies lol. anyways its this yellowish topaz colour to me i think yuk what is that colour but just now i realise this, whether the colour is nice or not someone put alot of effort into creating this gem, there was a huge process into making this gem. so really who am i to judge this masterpiece. OK so here's where i am coming with that yuk colour. we as humans have sin in us that ugly colour is like our sin. but the other colours represent love joy peace patience kindness meekness. etc. even at our ugliest moments there can be beauty from deep within.
what gem are you today beautiful purified and refined. or are you the gem in process. being shaped and moulded into who you are.
you are priceless possession though you don't see yourself as beautiful always there is such beauty inside. maybe you are just being chiseled and prepared for the most beautiful of all.
Elz
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
transition
Reader's,
How are thing's with you? here is something i am walking through transition. about 2 weeks ago my sister and I had a "talk" she told me she is moving out before I never took it seriously like yeah how many times have you said something and you never really took action. this time i knew she meant business. so i went on nanny services.com. i know alot of people reading this might be from my local church crossroads community church. there are people trying to get me to stay. but here's the truth. I have always taken care of everyone else and that's great but where i am i need to grow up, I need to find who I am. I have lived for and through others for so long that I don't know who I am.I'm not one that adapts to change well. but i am ready to stop living in fear of what if. all these fears lurking around me i have been living in a bubble of a life. if it's safe then i guess I'll do it. even when i am wild and crazy i plan it to a degree. if i know it's not safe i wont do it. I want you all to understand this is not a running away thing. this is i need to know who i am and who God is to me. I need a refreshed fire for God not for others for me. this is a season, a place where I need to surrender and learn to really trust God and trust myself, forgive myself from secret sins from pasts that have left me damaged. I am a prize possession, a woman of God that needs God more then life itself. no matter where i go where i live God has my back. as he has yours as too.
maybe you are where I am and you are fighting through so much that it weigh's you down so much. I am here living in it right now. here's the thing just talking about it helps. admitting to God to others hey i don't have it together you know know the answer's you might be surprised to know that other' feel the same.
elz
How are thing's with you? here is something i am walking through transition. about 2 weeks ago my sister and I had a "talk" she told me she is moving out before I never took it seriously like yeah how many times have you said something and you never really took action. this time i knew she meant business. so i went on nanny services.com. i know alot of people reading this might be from my local church crossroads community church. there are people trying to get me to stay. but here's the truth. I have always taken care of everyone else and that's great but where i am i need to grow up, I need to find who I am. I have lived for and through others for so long that I don't know who I am.I'm not one that adapts to change well. but i am ready to stop living in fear of what if. all these fears lurking around me i have been living in a bubble of a life. if it's safe then i guess I'll do it. even when i am wild and crazy i plan it to a degree. if i know it's not safe i wont do it. I want you all to understand this is not a running away thing. this is i need to know who i am and who God is to me. I need a refreshed fire for God not for others for me. this is a season, a place where I need to surrender and learn to really trust God and trust myself, forgive myself from secret sins from pasts that have left me damaged. I am a prize possession, a woman of God that needs God more then life itself. no matter where i go where i live God has my back. as he has yours as too.
maybe you are where I am and you are fighting through so much that it weigh's you down so much. I am here living in it right now. here's the thing just talking about it helps. admitting to God to others hey i don't have it together you know know the answer's you might be surprised to know that other' feel the same.
elz
Tuesday, 24 July 2012
No man left behind
Hi, hope God is blessing you mightily today. today I want to write about leaving no one behind.
I am just siting here in my chair and i got thinking to myself. if you saw a crippled legging behind in a race or someone legging behind and you were at the front of the line this was the race of your life. would you run and get those people so they wouldn't fail. you may lose the biggest race. but you gain victory. you may be asking how can you lose the race but gain victory. here's how you sacrificed your position to help out those who didn't have the strength to run on there own. you offered strength when there was none. you reached down and became the one person to reach out.
see there is a world out there that just needs us to be there Jesus. not be Jesus but Christlike. today i pray that as you read this blog that God would place people upon your heart, whether you just pray for them or you call them up send them a message hey i am thinking about you today.you never know when that could be the most pivotal point in there lives.
i know over the past 2 years I've prayed God please just send someone to encourage me or just be there. cause there has been times i have been worn out.and just needed someone it didn't matter who. just someone. will you be that someone today, will you run back for those that are legging behind and give them the truth, the love of Christ.
think about it and let God place those specific people upon the tablets of your heart. as well as check out psalm 18.
may God fill your hearts with compassion and love for other's today. may you feel peace like never before. be blessed.
elz
I am just siting here in my chair and i got thinking to myself. if you saw a crippled legging behind in a race or someone legging behind and you were at the front of the line this was the race of your life. would you run and get those people so they wouldn't fail. you may lose the biggest race. but you gain victory. you may be asking how can you lose the race but gain victory. here's how you sacrificed your position to help out those who didn't have the strength to run on there own. you offered strength when there was none. you reached down and became the one person to reach out.
see there is a world out there that just needs us to be there Jesus. not be Jesus but Christlike. today i pray that as you read this blog that God would place people upon your heart, whether you just pray for them or you call them up send them a message hey i am thinking about you today.you never know when that could be the most pivotal point in there lives.
i know over the past 2 years I've prayed God please just send someone to encourage me or just be there. cause there has been times i have been worn out.and just needed someone it didn't matter who. just someone. will you be that someone today, will you run back for those that are legging behind and give them the truth, the love of Christ.
think about it and let God place those specific people upon the tablets of your heart. as well as check out psalm 18.
may God fill your hearts with compassion and love for other's today. may you feel peace like never before. be blessed.
elz
Monday, 23 July 2012
Running on Empty
Dear Reader
what's up? So I was at home the other day and all of a sudden i thought about those leaders, young and old who are SO busy that they run themselves empty then i got thinking about cars. so hopefully you can follow my analogy.
OK Rachel's old car the Chevy cavalier was a death mobile. the gas speedometer didn't work on it so you never knew how much gas was in it other then when the smell of gas got really strong. anyways there was a few times we ended up pushing her car to a nearest gas station.
OK so how is being empty like an oil change as well as a empty gas tank. well think of it like this we all need proper tools to function when we don't read our bible its like emptying out the gas tank eventually there's going to be no more gas in your tank. so we need to keep filling ourselves up with the word daily. the oil change is like the essentials of our life if we don't take care of ourselves and we keep putting junk in ourselves we can run dry, we become black like old oil.
I am in a place in life where i feel so empty, so dry. for me it's cause i don't think about how much God truly loves me. we all have things that fill us up. but what are you filling yourself up with? pure crap or pure rich stuff. like worship, positive thinking, Gods word. you can fill in the blanks for yourself. I know that we all have different reasons to why we feel empty.this morning almost afternoon i keep thinking about people who are running on empty.whether its there emotional love tank is empty. its like a car if you don't take time to fill your car up with gasoline you eventually run on empty. if you don't check your oil levels it can worse case scenario blow your transmission. cause in cars there is 2 kinds of oil changes, there is the normal oil change which is to be changed every 5000-10,000 kilometres or miles then there is a transmission oil change that should be done every i think 50-80 thousand kilometres or miles. what happens when you don't check this is eventually your transmission seizes up kind of like a hard surface. same thing happens with people if they stop reading the bible they run out they run dry and can become empty and callous eventually. now how do we change the cycle back to the car analogy again. in order to do an oil change you must first get out the right tools jack up or boost up your car then when you are under you will place a bucket and loosen up the thing where your oil comes out. what happens is it comes through a filter you can always tell when you haven't changed your oil on time the oil is black and almost thicker substance. anyways you wait for the oil to come out then when its all out you wipe your area down now the secret to putting the new filter in is take some of the old oil and rub it along the top where you twist it on so it will go into place better. then when you make sure there is no dirt you pour your new oil in.
Elz
what's up? So I was at home the other day and all of a sudden i thought about those leaders, young and old who are SO busy that they run themselves empty then i got thinking about cars. so hopefully you can follow my analogy.
OK Rachel's old car the Chevy cavalier was a death mobile. the gas speedometer didn't work on it so you never knew how much gas was in it other then when the smell of gas got really strong. anyways there was a few times we ended up pushing her car to a nearest gas station.
OK so how is being empty like an oil change as well as a empty gas tank. well think of it like this we all need proper tools to function when we don't read our bible its like emptying out the gas tank eventually there's going to be no more gas in your tank. so we need to keep filling ourselves up with the word daily. the oil change is like the essentials of our life if we don't take care of ourselves and we keep putting junk in ourselves we can run dry, we become black like old oil.
I am in a place in life where i feel so empty, so dry. for me it's cause i don't think about how much God truly loves me. we all have things that fill us up. but what are you filling yourself up with? pure crap or pure rich stuff. like worship, positive thinking, Gods word. you can fill in the blanks for yourself. I know that we all have different reasons to why we feel empty.this morning almost afternoon i keep thinking about people who are running on empty.whether its there emotional love tank is empty. its like a car if you don't take time to fill your car up with gasoline you eventually run on empty. if you don't check your oil levels it can worse case scenario blow your transmission. cause in cars there is 2 kinds of oil changes, there is the normal oil change which is to be changed every 5000-10,000 kilometres or miles then there is a transmission oil change that should be done every i think 50-80 thousand kilometres or miles. what happens when you don't check this is eventually your transmission seizes up kind of like a hard surface. same thing happens with people if they stop reading the bible they run out they run dry and can become empty and callous eventually. now how do we change the cycle back to the car analogy again. in order to do an oil change you must first get out the right tools jack up or boost up your car then when you are under you will place a bucket and loosen up the thing where your oil comes out. what happens is it comes through a filter you can always tell when you haven't changed your oil on time the oil is black and almost thicker substance. anyways you wait for the oil to come out then when its all out you wipe your area down now the secret to putting the new filter in is take some of the old oil and rub it along the top where you twist it on so it will go into place better. then when you make sure there is no dirt you pour your new oil in.
Elz
clean
Here's to everyone out there that is struggling with purity now. this is a subject that everyone deals with. i want to share some of my story with you. in hopes that those who read this will be encouraged knowing that where ever you are where you struggle the most there is a way to come clean.
OK so last year i lost a lot of weight i was the smallest i had been in 10 years. I didn't know what it was like to have guys like me. I totally sucked in the attention. i messed up with a guy. it was just a kiss no harm done right? wrong! that only lasted about a month or 2. then last June i met up with a old guy friend from high school. he was super attractive in my opinion we did all the things a dating couple does. canoeing, playing music together writing letters back and forth. we had so many laughs and fun times. as this friendship developed i convinced myself that i was going to marry this guy one day he just didn't know it yet. he didn't understand how determined i was. everything was all good he was like my best friend. very honest, respectable, even now hes one of the most honourable guys i know. anyways 2 weeks before Christmas we had a talk and decided it was time to break off all ties. it was an emotional break up. but the damage it bestowed upon my heart. left me in ruins, i tried to convince everyone i was fine and there was days that i really was. but other days i just wanted to crawl in a corner and hide myself. i began to isolate myself from friends and others. slowly taking myself out of service at church. I was completely broken inside. we had the hugest fight i think it was like 3 weeks later. it left me even more hurt, in shackles. it was like this huge part of me was stripped out. I tried to contain my hurt but there were nights i would cry myself to sleep. then wake up the next day and where a smile as if there was nothing wrong. in January i decided i was tired of feeling sorry for myself. so I went on christian mingle.com talked to a few guys but nothing much at first then i met this guy he ended up being from Michigan.He came down from Michigan. i figured he was a christian. so I'd be safe. no i was not. he was stronger then i we ended up fooling around. that same week i messed up with another guy. none of these guys meant anything to me i was trying to cover up the pain that i felt inside.it was then that i opened the doors to places for the enemy to really get a hold of me. he has really lied to me and i am telling you now its not fun. the damage that comes from even just opening the door a crack is not worth it. I am still fighting through the damage. just when I thought i wouldn't fall for the lies i did. here's the truth i tried to run from my problems but instead got sucked in further trying to deny and say that i don't have purity issues.
The other day I was cleaning windows outside at work and as I started i realised that there was a place i missed. as I sprayed more Windex on and scrubbed a little harder. God spoke to me he said."elz sometimes when you think you are clean on the outside you need to go a Little deeper on the inside."
you know why we feel unclean is from things we do that we know are wrong. to anyone who says oh it's easy just don't sin. you're wrong we have all fallen short of the glory of God. who am i to judge you. here's the thing each of us are ugly inside what i mean have you ever lied cheated stolen, said mean things, used Gods name in vein, ( just to clear this up this is not a pity party make you feel bad about yourself blog) treated someone less then they way they ought to be treated. I have. I have hurt lied cheated judged etc you know the list goes on for all of us. all those things alone make us clean that is the flesh. but when you have the holy spirit living in you. the bible says. as far as the east is from the from west that's how far he has removed our transgressions from us. so let's stop feeling sorry for ourselves and get up and give our uncleanliness to God. i know that it hurts trust me i am here with you all. this is not easy but if we are going to move forward in life we must begin to let God change us redeem us, find us where we are at. greater is he that is in us then he that is in the world. maybe this makes sense and maybe it doesn't but its real stuff. i could write more here but i think we will let this penetrate us. let it sink in. we are worthy, we are valuable we are made new in Christ just have to let him be God and step aside.
Elz
OK so last year i lost a lot of weight i was the smallest i had been in 10 years. I didn't know what it was like to have guys like me. I totally sucked in the attention. i messed up with a guy. it was just a kiss no harm done right? wrong! that only lasted about a month or 2. then last June i met up with a old guy friend from high school. he was super attractive in my opinion we did all the things a dating couple does. canoeing, playing music together writing letters back and forth. we had so many laughs and fun times. as this friendship developed i convinced myself that i was going to marry this guy one day he just didn't know it yet. he didn't understand how determined i was. everything was all good he was like my best friend. very honest, respectable, even now hes one of the most honourable guys i know. anyways 2 weeks before Christmas we had a talk and decided it was time to break off all ties. it was an emotional break up. but the damage it bestowed upon my heart. left me in ruins, i tried to convince everyone i was fine and there was days that i really was. but other days i just wanted to crawl in a corner and hide myself. i began to isolate myself from friends and others. slowly taking myself out of service at church. I was completely broken inside. we had the hugest fight i think it was like 3 weeks later. it left me even more hurt, in shackles. it was like this huge part of me was stripped out. I tried to contain my hurt but there were nights i would cry myself to sleep. then wake up the next day and where a smile as if there was nothing wrong. in January i decided i was tired of feeling sorry for myself. so I went on christian mingle.com talked to a few guys but nothing much at first then i met this guy he ended up being from Michigan.He came down from Michigan. i figured he was a christian. so I'd be safe. no i was not. he was stronger then i we ended up fooling around. that same week i messed up with another guy. none of these guys meant anything to me i was trying to cover up the pain that i felt inside.it was then that i opened the doors to places for the enemy to really get a hold of me. he has really lied to me and i am telling you now its not fun. the damage that comes from even just opening the door a crack is not worth it. I am still fighting through the damage. just when I thought i wouldn't fall for the lies i did. here's the truth i tried to run from my problems but instead got sucked in further trying to deny and say that i don't have purity issues.
The other day I was cleaning windows outside at work and as I started i realised that there was a place i missed. as I sprayed more Windex on and scrubbed a little harder. God spoke to me he said."elz sometimes when you think you are clean on the outside you need to go a Little deeper on the inside."
you know why we feel unclean is from things we do that we know are wrong. to anyone who says oh it's easy just don't sin. you're wrong we have all fallen short of the glory of God. who am i to judge you. here's the thing each of us are ugly inside what i mean have you ever lied cheated stolen, said mean things, used Gods name in vein, ( just to clear this up this is not a pity party make you feel bad about yourself blog) treated someone less then they way they ought to be treated. I have. I have hurt lied cheated judged etc you know the list goes on for all of us. all those things alone make us clean that is the flesh. but when you have the holy spirit living in you. the bible says. as far as the east is from the from west that's how far he has removed our transgressions from us. so let's stop feeling sorry for ourselves and get up and give our uncleanliness to God. i know that it hurts trust me i am here with you all. this is not easy but if we are going to move forward in life we must begin to let God change us redeem us, find us where we are at. greater is he that is in us then he that is in the world. maybe this makes sense and maybe it doesn't but its real stuff. i could write more here but i think we will let this penetrate us. let it sink in. we are worthy, we are valuable we are made new in Christ just have to let him be God and step aside.
Elz
Thursday, 19 July 2012
you can run but you can't hide
Reader's
How are you doing today? here's a question we are each asked every day, here is the truth some ask how you are cause they care and others it's a conversation starter where as other's they just ask and don't care to really know!! you can spot out each types usally. today i want to talk about running you'll see how I tie "how are you" to running in a moment...
Ok so have you ever wanted to run? wanted to escape to paradise you know where there's no hard times everything is ginger peachy dandy fine. no one knows you so this means you don't actually have to tell anyone whats really going on inside. ok so here's where we tie "how are you" into "running away"
The past 2 years I have been struggling figuring out where I best fit, people tell you pray about it, and i have but what am I to do in the meantime. while waiting for this next best thing I have slowly hid myself away on a shelf hidden from most people this is where 2 of me comes in.
You may not understand the 2 of me part. here let me explain for a moment. there is the flesh which is a cloud of yukkyness and then there's the holy spirit which everything good. the other day i was reading Romans 8 and wham bam thank you mam hit me hard. like mental slap in the face. ouch!! here's how we relate "how are you" to this. when you are living in the flesh. you do things that aren't good trust me it's not fun. check out what the bible says.......
9 You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. 10 But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life[d] because of righteousness. 11 And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of[e] his Spirit who lives in you.
12 Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 13 For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.
14 For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. 15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to son ship.[f] And by him we cry, “Abba,[g] Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs —heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
so next time someone asks you how you are.know you don't have to say your good. being real is a sure way to admit that life is not perfect...
so how are you doing? i mean how are you really doing today?
elz
How are you doing today? here's a question we are each asked every day, here is the truth some ask how you are cause they care and others it's a conversation starter where as other's they just ask and don't care to really know!! you can spot out each types usally. today i want to talk about running you'll see how I tie "how are you" to running in a moment...
Ok so have you ever wanted to run? wanted to escape to paradise you know where there's no hard times everything is ginger peachy dandy fine. no one knows you so this means you don't actually have to tell anyone whats really going on inside. ok so here's where we tie "how are you" into "running away"
The past 2 years I have been struggling figuring out where I best fit, people tell you pray about it, and i have but what am I to do in the meantime. while waiting for this next best thing I have slowly hid myself away on a shelf hidden from most people this is where 2 of me comes in.
You may not understand the 2 of me part. here let me explain for a moment. there is the flesh which is a cloud of yukkyness and then there's the holy spirit which everything good. the other day i was reading Romans 8 and wham bam thank you mam hit me hard. like mental slap in the face. ouch!! here's how we relate "how are you" to this. when you are living in the flesh. you do things that aren't good trust me it's not fun. check out what the bible says.......
Life Through the Spirit
8 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death. 3 For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in the flesh, 4 in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
5 Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. 6 The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. 7 The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8 Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.9 You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. 10 But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life[d] because of righteousness. 11 And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of[e] his Spirit who lives in you.
12 Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. 13 For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.
14 For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. 15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to son ship.[f] And by him we cry, “Abba,[g] Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs —heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
so next time someone asks you how you are.know you don't have to say your good. being real is a sure way to admit that life is not perfect...
so how are you doing? i mean how are you really doing today?
elz
Here in the silence
Here in the silence in the quickening air. will the rain fall and fill the dry places in my life or will i live in the desert place as God is at work though I cannot always feel or see him I know hes the sunshine in the darkness. He's the rainbow in the rain.He's the joy in the sorrow. he's the hope to the hopeless.
As i write today i think that there is different kinds of writers the ones who scream out there words and you hear them loud and clear then there's the ones you can hear the joy through there words. and you are instantly strengthened and encouraged.
Today my words are those of a silent person ready for some serious heart connection i am neither here nor there.
Over the past few months i have felt extremely dry almost cold and numb at times. only few bring out the life in me. others well i like to call them "kill joy's" in elz terms "kill joy's" are the people in your life who smother your dreams, your joy, your zeal for life.I have them in my life i mean i am trying so hard to ignore them lol, they are like leache's they suck the life out of you. so much so that you are left angry dried up and speechless. they are the ones you try to reason with but make everything negative and blah.
they say who you spend the most time with is who'll you'll become like! who are you surrounding yourself around? it also says in the bible bad company corrupts good character. there are leaches in all our lives all our circles. truth is we have all had our share. did you know the best way to get leaches off you is dump salt on them.
matthew 5:13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
elz
As i write today i think that there is different kinds of writers the ones who scream out there words and you hear them loud and clear then there's the ones you can hear the joy through there words. and you are instantly strengthened and encouraged.
Today my words are those of a silent person ready for some serious heart connection i am neither here nor there.
Over the past few months i have felt extremely dry almost cold and numb at times. only few bring out the life in me. others well i like to call them "kill joy's" in elz terms "kill joy's" are the people in your life who smother your dreams, your joy, your zeal for life.I have them in my life i mean i am trying so hard to ignore them lol, they are like leache's they suck the life out of you. so much so that you are left angry dried up and speechless. they are the ones you try to reason with but make everything negative and blah.
they say who you spend the most time with is who'll you'll become like! who are you surrounding yourself around? it also says in the bible bad company corrupts good character. there are leaches in all our lives all our circles. truth is we have all had our share. did you know the best way to get leaches off you is dump salt on them.
matthew 5:13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
elz
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
(beaver) "Dam It"
Dear Reader's
How many of you say you are god today? but inside you are broken, you're barely making it through the days, but you remain strong, you do this day in day out and tell everyone even yourself you are amazing.. let me call your bluff today.
Last night i had this dream that i was at my parents church, i walked in and i was not myself i was sad and quiet like there was a heaviness on me. then out of the blue there was a lady who touched me. I simply said please don't touch me, but she said something all of a sudden i got extremely angry. i ran out of the service in tears. as i went outside my mom said Elsbeth darling are you OK then I completely broke down, No mom I am not OK, i haven't been for a while. i fell in her arms and just cried. Dad stood by and told me that he loved me and that he was proud of me i cried even more then i did with mo thinking if they only knew what i have done they wouldn't be proud of me. then i woke up early in the morning with tears streaming down my face.
Do you pretend as well? are you like me?you have some serious dam walls up, and sometimes it causes more damage trying to protect yourself from being hurt again,
This morning I got a water bottle ready to take to work with me. i put it in the bag i thought the lid was tight but NO it leaked water all over everything in that bag, my phone included. when i got to work i put this water bottle in the freezer part of the fridge and guess what it did it again. inside my bag i had one of those jose Louis things its wrapped in a clear package so you can see the contents but when the water leaked on it it caused the top layer to be stuck to the clear plastic wrap. inside was crumbs and this chocolaty goodness once solid now its broken and all scattered. all cause water leaked on the plastic. this is what inspired this blog the blasted water bottle spill.
truth is you don't have to have everything all together it's OK to be broken, its OK to have sad and bad days,but when we try to cover up how we feel whats really real with us this is a normal thing i realise this but here's the thing when we act so strong all the time we become callous of heart we act lie we don't need anyone to help us we can do everything on our own, that's a lie we need help. much like the jose Louis when it started out hard and solid all it took was a little moisture and it crumbled to pieces. eventually you are going to have to trust someone, eventually you are going to have to let someone in eventually you are going to have to let someone love you.
So let's go, let's break the dam wall. and stop hiding behind our defence mechanisms of fear and what if they do this what if they say this... you may be good at fooling others but at the end of the day you can't fool yourself. here's the thing i totally where my heart on my sleeve. but there is things that I don't even want people to know about me it's cause i have closed off people. people Will only get so close to me and then i freeze up and freak out inside cause they have gotten to close to the person that i have hidden from everyone. it's like i am in this dark room and the light is trying to creep in yet i keep shutting the blinds. and sometimes it only takes one person to open the blinds, so that you can see light again, i know it's going to hurt, i know it's not going to happen if you snap your fingers. this thing called fear can only be broken when you accept how much God truly loves you. yes you are loved. god loves you he loves every detail of your life. trust him he wont abandon you nor just say he loves you then walk away on you. when God tells he loves you he's saying i love every part of you inside and out.
Dear God, I pray for everyone who is reading this i pray that you would soften there hearts that you would go deep inside and break down every wall every heavy chain and breathe life into us again. Thank you that you love us even when we don't deserve it.
speak to the depths of our wandering hearts ad please place your hedge of protection upon our thoughts our words our hearts. keep us safe wrapped in your arms of love.
you are never alone... for i know the plans i have for you declares the Lord plans not to harm you plans to prosper you to give you a hope and a future
~Jeremiah 29:11
Elz
How many of you say you are god today? but inside you are broken, you're barely making it through the days, but you remain strong, you do this day in day out and tell everyone even yourself you are amazing.. let me call your bluff today.
Last night i had this dream that i was at my parents church, i walked in and i was not myself i was sad and quiet like there was a heaviness on me. then out of the blue there was a lady who touched me. I simply said please don't touch me, but she said something all of a sudden i got extremely angry. i ran out of the service in tears. as i went outside my mom said Elsbeth darling are you OK then I completely broke down, No mom I am not OK, i haven't been for a while. i fell in her arms and just cried. Dad stood by and told me that he loved me and that he was proud of me i cried even more then i did with mo thinking if they only knew what i have done they wouldn't be proud of me. then i woke up early in the morning with tears streaming down my face.
Do you pretend as well? are you like me?you have some serious dam walls up, and sometimes it causes more damage trying to protect yourself from being hurt again,
This morning I got a water bottle ready to take to work with me. i put it in the bag i thought the lid was tight but NO it leaked water all over everything in that bag, my phone included. when i got to work i put this water bottle in the freezer part of the fridge and guess what it did it again. inside my bag i had one of those jose Louis things its wrapped in a clear package so you can see the contents but when the water leaked on it it caused the top layer to be stuck to the clear plastic wrap. inside was crumbs and this chocolaty goodness once solid now its broken and all scattered. all cause water leaked on the plastic. this is what inspired this blog the blasted water bottle spill.
truth is you don't have to have everything all together it's OK to be broken, its OK to have sad and bad days,but when we try to cover up how we feel whats really real with us this is a normal thing i realise this but here's the thing when we act so strong all the time we become callous of heart we act lie we don't need anyone to help us we can do everything on our own, that's a lie we need help. much like the jose Louis when it started out hard and solid all it took was a little moisture and it crumbled to pieces. eventually you are going to have to trust someone, eventually you are going to have to let someone in eventually you are going to have to let someone love you.
So let's go, let's break the dam wall. and stop hiding behind our defence mechanisms of fear and what if they do this what if they say this... you may be good at fooling others but at the end of the day you can't fool yourself. here's the thing i totally where my heart on my sleeve. but there is things that I don't even want people to know about me it's cause i have closed off people. people Will only get so close to me and then i freeze up and freak out inside cause they have gotten to close to the person that i have hidden from everyone. it's like i am in this dark room and the light is trying to creep in yet i keep shutting the blinds. and sometimes it only takes one person to open the blinds, so that you can see light again, i know it's going to hurt, i know it's not going to happen if you snap your fingers. this thing called fear can only be broken when you accept how much God truly loves you. yes you are loved. god loves you he loves every detail of your life. trust him he wont abandon you nor just say he loves you then walk away on you. when God tells he loves you he's saying i love every part of you inside and out.
Dear God, I pray for everyone who is reading this i pray that you would soften there hearts that you would go deep inside and break down every wall every heavy chain and breathe life into us again. Thank you that you love us even when we don't deserve it.
speak to the depths of our wandering hearts ad please place your hedge of protection upon our thoughts our words our hearts. keep us safe wrapped in your arms of love.
you are never alone... for i know the plans i have for you declares the Lord plans not to harm you plans to prosper you to give you a hope and a future
~Jeremiah 29:11
Elz
Monday, 9 July 2012
confusion
Reader,
What is confusion? I believe confusion comes when you are not at peace with God you aren't trusting God. i know cause I have this big ugly cloud that follows me filled with everything that I am not. lets take a look into confusion, maybe you can think of a time when you felt confused in a situation, in a circumstance. How did you get into a place of confusion? when did find yourself overcoming your confusion?
We all have an area in our lives!!! Right now I struggle knowing where am i going where do i best fit? when will life turn around for me? maybe this is for you and maybe it's not. maybe you are going through something that causes alot of tension, causes alot of inner turmoil. you know that you are living 2 ways you act the way everyone wants when you are around your friends, but when it's just you and you're by yourself who are you really? i know I have made many mistakes. i know what's right yet i do the opposite sometimes and then i have this huge fight within myself. i knock myself down cause i don't trust God I don't always listen to his words of life. my question is this! why do we let the enemies word bring us down, destroy us? when we have a God that speaks truth over our lives. its so much easier to hear the lies is it not? i know that i am not alone in this. what part of your life confuses you? now i realise this blog may or may not be for everyone.
God is not the author of confusion he is the author and finisher of life. I would like to end this blog in the bible with a couple scriptures.
http://www.biblegateway.com/ check out Proverbs 9:1-6 & 1 Corinthians 14:33
there is a song we just started singing at church.... All consuming sacrifice so freely given such a price bought our redemption heaven's gates fling wide. there is power in the name of Jesus there is power in the name of Jesus to break every chain break every chain break every chain.
where are you going? what are you running from? what are you afraid of? who is holding you in this confusion?
What is confusion? I believe confusion comes when you are not at peace with God you aren't trusting God. i know cause I have this big ugly cloud that follows me filled with everything that I am not. lets take a look into confusion, maybe you can think of a time when you felt confused in a situation, in a circumstance. How did you get into a place of confusion? when did find yourself overcoming your confusion?
We all have an area in our lives!!! Right now I struggle knowing where am i going where do i best fit? when will life turn around for me? maybe this is for you and maybe it's not. maybe you are going through something that causes alot of tension, causes alot of inner turmoil. you know that you are living 2 ways you act the way everyone wants when you are around your friends, but when it's just you and you're by yourself who are you really? i know I have made many mistakes. i know what's right yet i do the opposite sometimes and then i have this huge fight within myself. i knock myself down cause i don't trust God I don't always listen to his words of life. my question is this! why do we let the enemies word bring us down, destroy us? when we have a God that speaks truth over our lives. its so much easier to hear the lies is it not? i know that i am not alone in this. what part of your life confuses you? now i realise this blog may or may not be for everyone.
God is not the author of confusion he is the author and finisher of life. I would like to end this blog in the bible with a couple scriptures.
http://www.biblegateway.com/ check out Proverbs 9:1-6 & 1 Corinthians 14:33
there is a song we just started singing at church.... All consuming sacrifice so freely given such a price bought our redemption heaven's gates fling wide. there is power in the name of Jesus there is power in the name of Jesus to break every chain break every chain break every chain.
where are you going? what are you running from? what are you afraid of? who is holding you in this confusion?
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. john 14:27
elz
elz
Saturday, 7 July 2012
move it or lose it!
Reader,
Be prepared for what i might download is a heavy one today. you know when you are driving on the road you have to get somewhere and that's when you are stuck behind slow drivers the summer tractor drivers. all you want to do is get around them. thinking to yourself move get out of the way. I mean you really can't stand this. the anger button goes off and next thing you know you are overtaking finally after this what seems like forever of waiting. you pass and its like you can breathe again. as you pass by them its like SO long sucker. you hearing me ha ha.
OK so life is much like this when something is urgent, you know you need to get to this destination but...... something keeps you held back. you know those detours right... what are some things that keep us from going where you need to be? lies, wrong thoughts, disappointments, strongholds, fear, etc basically attacks from an unseen enemy. Readers there is a enemy crouching at your door trying to do whatever it takes to distract you from getting to your destination.
I know all to well what distractions look like, over the past few months I have gone through hard things. things that not many even know about. i have gotten past the worst of it but still not out of this distraction daze. its a cloud of yukkiness. and it haunts me with regrets, with hurts and pains i do not wish upon anyone. there is times you need to just get out of the way and flee as fast and as far as you can. cause danger is around the corner.
If you aren't careful and wise in your decisions you will be stuck behind slow moving traffic never making a way. i mean sometimes you have to have wait it out right cause do you want to just pass a tractor when someone is coming at you head on, not likely so even though it sucks being behind sometimes you have to to deal with life's crap. oh believe me its stinky yukky crap but if you are always so rushed you don't take time to deal with the hard stuff. you never really learn from life.
just think about it!!!!
elz
Be prepared for what i might download is a heavy one today. you know when you are driving on the road you have to get somewhere and that's when you are stuck behind slow drivers the summer tractor drivers. all you want to do is get around them. thinking to yourself move get out of the way. I mean you really can't stand this. the anger button goes off and next thing you know you are overtaking finally after this what seems like forever of waiting. you pass and its like you can breathe again. as you pass by them its like SO long sucker. you hearing me ha ha.
OK so life is much like this when something is urgent, you know you need to get to this destination but...... something keeps you held back. you know those detours right... what are some things that keep us from going where you need to be? lies, wrong thoughts, disappointments, strongholds, fear, etc basically attacks from an unseen enemy. Readers there is a enemy crouching at your door trying to do whatever it takes to distract you from getting to your destination.
I know all to well what distractions look like, over the past few months I have gone through hard things. things that not many even know about. i have gotten past the worst of it but still not out of this distraction daze. its a cloud of yukkiness. and it haunts me with regrets, with hurts and pains i do not wish upon anyone. there is times you need to just get out of the way and flee as fast and as far as you can. cause danger is around the corner.
If you aren't careful and wise in your decisions you will be stuck behind slow moving traffic never making a way. i mean sometimes you have to have wait it out right cause do you want to just pass a tractor when someone is coming at you head on, not likely so even though it sucks being behind sometimes you have to to deal with life's crap. oh believe me its stinky yukky crap but if you are always so rushed you don't take time to deal with the hard stuff. you never really learn from life.
just think about it!!!!
elz
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
closeness
Dear Reader,
For the past 2 years there has been moment where I thought God has abandoned me i thought where are you God why aren't you hear? why are you so far from me? I got so caught up in myself and made choices unpleasing to God. most people see the side that i show but I am going to be very real with you. over this past year and a half or 2 so many things have changed in my life. especially lately I have felt so far from God i didn't think i could deserve to be loved by God, how could he love this girl. this me that is so up so down, so in the in between? oh how i wish i could sit here and say i have my ducks all lined up in a row but that would be a lie! I am a planner one that knows what she wants and if you dare mess that up watch out. my life has been out of sorts, my worship so pretentious, my heart broken to the core. I have been so lost for a while now its why i struggle with the very people who know me most. who love me the most. i freeze up and and it's like i shut down and feel so far from everyone from God from people. I keep trying to change my life fix myself but it makes everything worse. anyone else do this? I haven't known a closeness with anyone in a long time......
"Here I am! I've been so lost, but God draws me to his light, just when I thought that I wouldn't make my way back God saw me and called me in"
He called me out by name. he loves me he knows me he wants me. He needs me oh how I love him so...
this message i planned to be more graceful to be more loving and gentle... cause truth is when we come to a place in our lives where we have to depend on God that's when he can do the most. but we have to need God.We have to TRUST God enough with Everything. He wants to romance us, He wants to bring us deeper in love with him, but we silly humans we think closeness is just about intimacy with someone being "close" is being touched, being "Close" is being near someone or some place. Do we even know what it's like to truly be close with God.
when we are really closest to God it's when we are completely broken, we are abandoned to one self, we are completely wrapped in Gods unfailing love and we fall flat on our face or knees (whatever sounds less painful) :) when God shows up even if we don't deserve him. point is even though we don't see God He is always there. even when we don't feel him he's there.
here's the one thing to watch out for... when we let the enemy tell us we are unwanted and all his lies, you know what I'm talking about cause we all have those stupid lies get to us. don't let those lies bring you down, God's as real as the wind is you can't see the wind but you know it's there.. God is here. He loves you.
elz
For the past 2 years there has been moment where I thought God has abandoned me i thought where are you God why aren't you hear? why are you so far from me? I got so caught up in myself and made choices unpleasing to God. most people see the side that i show but I am going to be very real with you. over this past year and a half or 2 so many things have changed in my life. especially lately I have felt so far from God i didn't think i could deserve to be loved by God, how could he love this girl. this me that is so up so down, so in the in between? oh how i wish i could sit here and say i have my ducks all lined up in a row but that would be a lie! I am a planner one that knows what she wants and if you dare mess that up watch out. my life has been out of sorts, my worship so pretentious, my heart broken to the core. I have been so lost for a while now its why i struggle with the very people who know me most. who love me the most. i freeze up and and it's like i shut down and feel so far from everyone from God from people. I keep trying to change my life fix myself but it makes everything worse. anyone else do this? I haven't known a closeness with anyone in a long time......
"Here I am! I've been so lost, but God draws me to his light, just when I thought that I wouldn't make my way back God saw me and called me in"
He called me out by name. he loves me he knows me he wants me. He needs me oh how I love him so...
this message i planned to be more graceful to be more loving and gentle... cause truth is when we come to a place in our lives where we have to depend on God that's when he can do the most. but we have to need God.We have to TRUST God enough with Everything. He wants to romance us, He wants to bring us deeper in love with him, but we silly humans we think closeness is just about intimacy with someone being "close" is being touched, being "Close" is being near someone or some place. Do we even know what it's like to truly be close with God.
when we are really closest to God it's when we are completely broken, we are abandoned to one self, we are completely wrapped in Gods unfailing love and we fall flat on our face or knees (whatever sounds less painful) :) when God shows up even if we don't deserve him. point is even though we don't see God He is always there. even when we don't feel him he's there.
here's the one thing to watch out for... when we let the enemy tell us we are unwanted and all his lies, you know what I'm talking about cause we all have those stupid lies get to us. don't let those lies bring you down, God's as real as the wind is you can't see the wind but you know it's there.. God is here. He loves you.
elz
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