another satisfaction returned

Dear Reader,
    It is another day  another  moment  another  time. here  i am sitting at work  thinking about life.thinking when was the last time I was satisfied serving in an area? anyone else  kind  of in this  season too?  it's  like  your  full of  something that  wants to be  flourished  but where  your  at its  not time to  use  what you're  given. we  just have to wait  just a little longer, hold  out  just a little longer  for  this  dynamite.  I don't even really know if this makes sense ha ha. I find myself waiting for  what seems forever.  there is all these  thoughts running  non  stop through  my mind.  if you  just  change this area in your  life you'll  be  better  if  you  act a certain way  people  will see your full  potential. I know how  selfish this sounds but i know that i am not alone in these  thoughts. or  am I?
  I am so close to breakthrough yet seems  so  far. all i can think in my mind  is elz take the limitations off.  stop  focusing on yourself  and  place your trust  in Christ, let God take lead in ALL  areas of your life.  he  created you  he  has a better knowledge  of  how he wants your (our )lives  to look  like.  see  i know this  but  why  is  it such a struggle to take that  knowledge  and apply it.  are  you  out there and like me when you  know something  but  you  don't follow through cause  it means you actually have to get up and do something.
 think of  our life like a race. how  do  we expect to get to the finish  line  if  we don't  start the race? sure you'll hit bumps in the  road  but  when you  jump over the  hurtles  of life you  know its  God that  carries you through.  he  gives you  just the right amount  of strength,  just the right amount of  energy. will you  join the  race today  or will you  continue to hold back and let others keep passing you by?


Elz

WAKE UP oh SLEEPER'S

Dear You,
       yeah you, the  one who  is drifting from place to place.  barely existing barely  making  a dent.  always  trying to keep in the  back ground cause you  are  to afraid  to be found.  to afraid  to be  seen for who you really are.  WAKE UP. the time to rise and shine is near,  GET UP YOU SLEEPER. Get up and  here  the  truth. you  have been  running for so long now that  you have long lost yourself. you  have become the person you can't stand.  the person that dwells  in hiding. its like a turtle hiding in its shell to afraid of danger to afraid to open up and trust for a  better  day.  Get up  don't  listen to the lies anymore. they are slowly  causing you to sleep.  Get up and be all that you  can be. WAKE  UP today is a new  day. this is the day that  the Lord has  made WE WILL rejoice  and be glad in it.
      I know you  are  tired  and weary, I know  that you are  exhausted from life.  some of you  sleep to forget the pain of yesterday's.  and some  of you everyday is Monday. it's a  drag to get up and get ready. For others you sleep living in your comfort bubble. I  know  you  might be thinking how  dare you  speak so blunt.  cause i am and have been  sleeping in for along time now.
     In the natural I  have  never been a morning girl. if you ask me  a million and a half  questions when i first  wake up  you  will most likely  get  female hulk. lately  i have been so tired i have been wanting to  just sleep but  i  get  so busy  with life  that  i fall into the weary  sleeper category. i think we all get into slumps. we  don't  even realise we are sleeping in the  spirit.
     when  was the last time you heard God speak to you? did  you listen (wake up) or discard what God spoke and go back to SLEEP. God  keeps  speaking  this  specific thing to me and I know that i have to be obedient  but  it'll mean hurting  someone so I have been falling back to SLEEP when God  is asking be to be obedient (wake up). 
       What's causing you to feel tired? what's causing you to  go back to sleep when God is calling you to wake up and overcome those  places you have been sleeping in? 

elz

it aint broke dont fix it "Fixer's"

Dear Reader

     Its been a long  time since i have written here. its not that i havent had anything to say  its i havent kown where  to start.  you  know when you are going through  things  you dont always  want to  talk  sometimes you  just  want to hide and distance yourself in your  own little  way. while your  friends the  "fixers"  are trying to solve your  problems for you. i know i am a fixer  funny thing is "fixers" sometimes are  the  very ones i stay  clear of.  you  know what i mean right? we all have "fixers" in our  life  ones who want nothing but the  best for us  no matter what.They  often say things to help you  but  sometimes you feel more  angry and hurt  after listening to them. trust me non fixers. us "fixers" are always  trying  to prevent you  from  doing the  crazy things we have  done. we  are only  trying to help you.   not  hurt you, not make matters worse. we  love so much us "fixers" tend to be  in your face. the  ones to push  you  when you  really dont want to be  pushed. we come  across  stand offish all for the sake of looking out  for others.  i  think as "fixers" we just  want to  see everything come together. i know myself i can't  stand something being out of place and out of order. im always  trying to make myself better  less  flawed. truth is  it makes  things  worse sometimes.
  I know   us  "fixers" tend  to act like  we have an answer  for  EVERYTHING  but   we dont. truth is  we  learn  alot by  books  revelations (and  by revelations i dont mean  the  book of  revelations ha ha) we  know what is real to us  and  we  forget that  not  everyone is us.  not everyone learns like us.
  So to  every  non  fixer i m  sorry  for  any  hurt that we have  caused  you,  thats  never  ever  our intension we just like to see everyone at there utmost  best.  we are the  way we are not to make you  be  someone  else  but because  we care enough  to say something.

from the  perspective of a fixer


elz