finding love

Dear Reader,
  How are you doing?  do ever  have  days where  you  feel so close yet so far away?

  My whole life i have made it my mission get  married  and have  children.  in fact i had to make it a competition with my mom.  she was married  at 21.  so at 19 i was like  yes I'm  going to find me a man and marry him  yeah i found a guy  but nothing happened,  at  21  i was like this is my year.  again  it didn't  happen again at  23 and  25 and  nope i didn't  get married.  it's  kind of funny  looking back but all you single ladies out there  know what I'm talking about.  cause you have or are still building yourself up  for  Mr right!!!in a sense you place yourself on a time line for when you  want to get married. if you aren't careful. the  desire  to get married will overtake you. i know it  sounds crazy  but  trust me not  too long ago i was that girl. chasing  guys  but never  waiting on God the perfect gentlemen.  thinking if i  don't  find  someone they will never  come.   crazy  so you  might think. but  how  many of us  are like that?
  I have  come  to a place where I don't  need  a man  to tell me he loves me.  if  i cant love myself how can i ever let a man love me?  do you  love yourself? when you  look  into the  mirror and see yourself what is the first thought  that  comes to you? young  woman  you  are most  beautiful there is nothing at all wrong with you.it's  time to  see who  God  has  painted you  to  look like.
1. you are beautiful.
2. you  are  worth fighting for
3. you are most  valuable there is  no one that will ever  be  exactly you
4. you  are  worthy. it doesn't matter  what  your  past  holds  let it go. i know that's  hard it took me what  seemed like a life time to let go and let God
5. you  are  100% original
6. you  are  lovely
7. you  are  precious a diamond in the  rough.

   the  list could  go on. as  you  begin to speak life  to yourself  something  begins to change  in your life.
  in order to  find  love  you  must  first love  God and love yourself.then  watch  when you are not looking the  right man  who  will lead you not pressure you he will come. as  woman we are  not  meant to hunt for  our men we are  to be pursued. so  wait  and let  god work on you  a  little  longer.

Elz