Dear Reader
you ever have a bad day OK just plain bad month or maybe year. this whole year has been one of the best and worst years so far. its like one moment everything is amazing then the next everything in life feels like it's fading and I'm being stretched farther then i want. this year God has really been taking me places. i don't even know where to start exactly.
the past 2 months have been so stressful and hard emotionally. i really liked a guy and thought for sure he was the one for me. (am I the only girl that does that) builds up a relationship on a pedestal and anxiously awaits the words "will you go out with me?" crazy right!!!! you know that feeling you get when everything all falls in place and you think for sure here is the guy i am waiting for.you build up the emotions. you are 110% sure that he is the one and then.... God tells you let him go. so you let him go and then your heart feels hurt.you see me and this guy need to take the time to place Jesus at the centre of all things. not the centre of each other. mind you my girl emotions placed this guy before everything in life God and other things too.
though it's like a break up without dating this is the best place for me right now. I don't know where God will lead me through all this but i know that God must have something huge in store for the wounded heart. God always has our backs even when we don't see him feel him. we can trust that he will take care of every detail small and huge in our lives.
I have to admit when you are broken it is much easier to want to run and hide. you know hide from the feeling of shame. or the countless questions that run through your mind. like what did I do wrong? must be my fault. why do things always happen to me? etc you know the thoughts I'm talking about.
I am still having a hard time getting through the countless things. but i know for sure that God holds my future he holds your future. so whatever the hard time you are facing maybe it's in relationships with loved ones maybe it's you lost your joy. maybe everything and it's mother is happening and your whole life is falling before you. maybe this is the very place you need to be to let God in completely.maybe you are at the bottom so God can take you to the top his way not ours.
well this is a season to be jolly even when you don't feel like it. get up today and overcome.here is something i read last night. "no matter how bad things may seem life will get better. God will reset the time machine to forward, and the lovely swan in your future will replace the ugly duckling. and there's a good chance that the best benefit will be in your ability to relish the little things in life."
so no matter how hard your situation may seem. Jesus will take care of ALL things if you will just let him
elz
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