Dear Reader
OK i know valentines day is now come and gone for this year any ways. this is a message that i feel i need to speak to all of us in relationships and all of us that are single. ill share a few of my hardships. and a then how God brings us out, now you might not like what you read... but let's just be real for a few moments.
OK last night my brother Aaron spoke on relationships he shared about how when he was younger he would dominate in hide and seek. my sister and i could never find him.he always had the best places. this one day he decided to hide in the dryer. as soon as he shut the door it was all dark and there was no light. he was a little uncomfortable so he decided to move a little. as he did the dryer started to spin he had a panic attack. he screamed HELP ME. then i think i was the one who found him as soon as i opened that door light appeared again.he knew he was safe that he wasn't stuck in the moment of darkness. if you allow the darkness in it will destroy your relationship. let me pain for you what darkness looks like using something i have just gone through in the past 2 years. this is something that doesn't come easy for me. but i feel that these words will be just enough to bring light to those in the darkness right now.
Every relationship will either bring us closer or farther away from God.recently i fell from God nothing over night it was kind of this gradual thing happening. it started from an offence that i was too stubborn to deal with. so i turned to guys and not God. i haven't trusted many because i haven't let God in enough to take away the hardest places in my heart. see i thought that guys would fill this great emptiness and void in my life. in 1 week i lost my way and got intimate with 2 different guys. neither of them talk to me again. so for the past while i have been struggling with why God? whats wrong with me i knew i was wrong but i seriously got so tired of being this good christian all the time. truth is relationships in the dating sense will never fill you up only God can.I can tell you that losing myself was never worth it. i tried to run and hide but i couldn't i thought about this god sees all and knows all. every single mistake and screw up i have ever made and will make he sees. I was never meant to run from but run to Gods arms of grace.
truth is i have screwed many times and I'm sure ill screw up again. but i have a God who loves me no matter what. "Don't part yourself with someone who pollutes you. when you date a guy/girl that doesn't believe in God. it's going to be like going to war with your values.
I don't know where you are at right now. maybe you are beyond hu5rt and broken your world is crashing on in the inside.maybe your walk with God is barely there. you place a brave face on and act so strong but inside there is huge turmoil on you know where you are at. you know what you face. good news so does God.
you are are loved you are so worth it. yes you you are worth it. so don't give up now and don't give up on God he is worth the fight. in the darkest of times only God can truly see you through.
i know you know this and get sick of hearing the same thing. but wait for Gods best for you. take the time to really enjoy your relationship with God. because if your relationship with God is out of allignment your relationship with others will be too. its a fact! do you really have to get your heart broken just to realise how important God is in all relationships.
elz
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