bully

Dear  Reader,
  when is it  ever ok to pick on anyone? for many years now there has been  issues.  today i was thinking  about the  bullies of heart.  you  may not outwardly always be a  bully.  but how many of us think bad thoughts bout each other? how many of us have felt like punching someone out. I think  we all have one  time or another.  ok where am i going with this you  may ask? 
  when I was in public school i was bullied verbally, physically. when i was in grade 3 there was a young  boy in grade 1 he had taken my scarf and started to strangle me.  my little sister saw this in the background.  she was this  little thing and my  attacker was a bigger guy. she  took him out.layed him out on the ground and started to pound the  heck out of this guy.  you know don't mess with my family mentality. I was  also  told  many hard things.  i  began  to feel so inferior.  like i could never measure up to anything i mean those things had been spoken over my life since  public  school.  
  Here's  the  thing when you are at the bottom  you don't  have anywhere  to go  but up.  i had to fight my way through. and  let me say that has never been easy to me. you  feel like a turtle  stuck in it's  shell. you  become comfortable  inside of this shell.  you  become  what people  say over your life though you  always have the choice to choose.
  at this point in life i have  seen  that  even at times i have been a  verbal bully. you  know  when  someone is annoying you and  you  lack the  grace. you lack the patience. in a moment of emotion and  on a feelings  base you  say things  to the ones you love that hurt and once you  have spoken you can't  take back those very words.  words  that  cause a deep wounding in there  very  being. have you  spoken unkindly  to  someone  to  or  behind there  back before.  i hate to  admit  but  i have. honestly  this  thing  about  bullies is  getting  worse out there for  the  children and youth,  bullies  just  want to feel  good about themselves so they put down  anyone who appears inferior. maybe  you are the  victim of being the bullied or maybe you  are  the  bully. either  way  may  this  message  wring true  to your hearts today.  I  get  it ! life is a huge process.  god loves us to much to leave us the  same. we can fight this inadequacy  these  insecurities that  keep us  captive. we can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us.
 so what's  it going to be  dear  reader? are you going to  be the  bully or are you  going  to choose to overcome today  where  you are standing. or are going to stay the  same with  the  whoa is me  victims  mindset.  i am sorry for  speaking so harsh.  i know this is a hard  place to overcome.  but  together  with God and a person you trust  you  can beat this  inadequacy of the  heart.  you  got this. i believe in you.




elz