love that reaches the sky

Dear  Reader,


     have you ever loved someone so much that you didn't see the truth? you  had a blind eye!!!!
     When I was 19 years old  i thought i fell in love with a guy over the Internet.  he was tall dark and handsome.  of  course it  took me awhile to  really  see  true colors when i say a  while i mean 2 or 3 years.Crazy  how your  heart tells you that you love when in fact you are only falling  for a  conception of love!!!!! anyways  this guy used all the right words.  he spoke words that  i thought i needed  to hear.  you  ever  met  this kind of  guy.  you ever get fooled into loving this image of love? this false identity.  this guy told me he was a christian. any ways he  left  no word  nothing from him  in 2 years.  though he was  gone i attached myself to him if that even makes sense.  it  was like i was left  abandoned and  I lost a piece of myself.  this  guy  came back and  told me this  load of lies how he was attacked  by armed  robbers and  that he needed  money  to  see me. i didn't give him any obviously. 
     the  moral of this story is  when you start looking for love you  might  find it in all the  wrong places.  see i spent  so much time shutting myself out  to Gods love cause of  insecurities cause.  i thought if i  acted a certain way  guys would like me more. maybe  you are in that  place right now reader, and you  feel  like  you  could never be loved.  your  life is full of shame and  full of  rejection. maybe you  have abandonment  issues and you don't know how to reach out for love. you have  shoved the thought the  dream that you could ever be loved.  so  you have become  cold and are shut down inside. today  this story is for you. today  you need to know how much you are forgiven and that you are loved.  i know  that it's very hard  to receive that. but  it's  the simple truth young girl it  doesn't matter what happened  yesterday today is a new day and you are  so worth it. you are so beyond valuable.  don't  lose heart take courage again. let love in let God in. Let hope arise deep within you.  there is a reason that you are here today.  you are not forgotten. you are not forgotten. so  get up stand up where you are at.
  young  person,  there is a  love deeper then anything that you have ever experienced. even  I  have a hard time  receiving love at times. we all need to know that we are worth  living for we are  worth it.  so  know that you are not alone where you stand today.  


elz