heartattude

                         Dear Reader,
  today as i  sit  at work  my  eyes  light up with  love  everything in me  sparkles  with  care.  now  this  didn't  happen just over  night.  sort to speak.  this  has been a  long process. so  let's take you  through a  moment  of elz attitudes...
   Let's  just  be honest  here I  probably had the  worst attitude growing up  ask any of my  past babysitters  lol.  ask anyone i;m  sure  you  will here a  few stories.  maybe  ask my mom  she knows  best.  OK  second  thought  maybe  don't  ask my mom.  cause like my mother i happen to be  very outspoken if something is wrong  I'll  tell you.  i haven't always  mastered  the  approach. you  know  soft answer  turns away wrath  harsh  words stirs up anger.  oh  how true is this.. 
  You  see God had  to take me  through a  process and he  still is.  cause  heaven knows i am certainly  not  perfect.  I  have  much to learn. right now  God is  seasoning my heart.  strengthening me  in areas where i have been weak.  
  There are many  heartattudes.  bad ones and good  ones. good ones are when your heart is at peace.and  instead of  taking on the world  you  just  let it  slide.  you begin to change the atmospheres in your life. and  God is  number one in everything. bad  attitudes  cause  tension in the house and cause  offenses. I dealt  with alot of that  and alot of it was me that caused  so much tension growing  up.   not going to lie I made it  extremely difficult for anyone to  truly love me.  especially my mom.they say  the person  you are most like is the one  you fight  with the most.  I'm no expert  but I'm thinking that's  just the  facts.  I still have to work on my  relationships with people.
   I have one amazing friend  that we are iron sharpens iron. and because  we are  so much alike in personality we have had to learn  when to speak and when not to speak.  you  see if  she  speaks  to me when I'm emotional or going through  some tough stuff  i  won't  receive what she  has  to say.and  vise versa Michelle and i  know how to  approach each other and I'm  so thankful that god  put her in my life. (Michelle  i love you)
     here is  some  areas of  attitudes  that  we can work on me  included.....  certain  insecurities  can cause us  to take  things  more personally, rejection or  abandonment  can cause us  to  shut people  out  before they even speak to us. you  know the  kind of people that only  here things the  way  they want to hear it. makes  it  difficult  for  anyone to  communicate.then there is the  attitude  of  pride i can  do it  by myself  i  don't  need  any one's  help  ordeal.  yeah  right!!!! we  do need  help whether we like to admit it or not.. 
  your  attitude  sets the altitude  which then causes  gratitude or  something like that. that was a Harper  saying  lol!!!






elz