The other night i had a dream that I got married to a prince. In my dream he loved someone else but something happened so he was forced to marry by the age of 30. there was a contest through out i ended up winning but before we got married i asked to speak with him for a few minutes.i said " I know that i am a stranger and that you are in love with another girl. that your heart doesn't belong to me. out of respect and honor to you.I don't want to you regret this biggest decision of your life.you don't have to marry me i would find the one your heart belongs to. and hope we could at least stay friends through all of this. and if you do choose me i hope that we can learn to love in time."
We ended up getting married. after we said our vows . He had to go hunting you see it was a wedding tradition.after you get married you must go hunting for 5-8 game and each animal you kill it represents love, strength, nobility, honor,courage, peace,wisdom and bravery.
while he was hunting i went to visit my mom and younger brother. now to describe my mother she was very dependent she couldn't live without having a boyfriend or a man in her life. she never picked very good guys just the first guy who would give her the time and day and would sweet talk her. well the guy she was with at the moment was a dirt bag. he wanted to get to me and so he tried to do sexual things with me and i fought back and said " GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW, YOU HAVE NO BUSINESS HERE WITH ME MY BROTHER OR MOM." just then mom walked in and started freaking out cause I wouldn't stand for this dirt bag. he went out fuming cause i wouldn't let him touch me. this whole time there was a reporter taking pictures of my moms boyfriend trying to do sexual things with me. turns out he was hired to make me look bad cause moms boyfriend hired him to follow me so it would ruin my marriage to the prince. in the following days i was out just playing sports and visiting my friends. my best friend was a guy so again the reporter tried to make it look bad. as i realized what was going on it was too late for the press had already seen what was happening and assumed they knew the real story.
that night when my prince/husband got back i decided to trust him with the truth about what had happened only days before. i told him he could trust me and that i wanted him to know the truth first hand, i knew that being we didn't know each other that well yet being we hadn't spent much time together that i had better trust someone with the truth. he told me not to worry for he would look into things and take care of everything for me. thank you i replied softly.
you see my character was strong, bold, independent, spunky, I wouldn't let anyone talk me out my place. I knew who I was and where I stood. some would say brave, courageous yet very soft spoken and a heart of love for people. I knew that the prince and i had a long way to go but i felt safe in his presence. I knew I wouldn't have to worry anymore. that love comes softly. as well sometimes you find love in the most unexpected places. in the end we grew to love each other very deeply.
This dream makes me think of the Story of Esther. there is a movie and it's one of my most favorites called "one night with the king". in the real I couldn't imagine loving someone that i know doesn't love me whose heart belongs to someone else. in time you learn to love.
today where you are at maybe you are the young woman who can't live without a guy in your life and it's too hard to wait. to hard to really let someone love the real sides of you, cause you are to busy looking for the next fling. young woman you are setting yourself up for danger!! would you not rather wait and fall in love for real not just another guy to fill in the missing pieces to your heart. I know the loneliness aspect. you are reaching out for rescue but you are to afraid to really let a man of god or good character love you.in this moment in this hour maybe you need to reach out and let someone love you. I know it's so easy to bury yourself then reveal yourself. for you young woman maybe it's time to let someone in. its time to trust someone enough, maybe its time to let someone love you enough. why not god he won't ever let you go.
think about what real love is. in my dream when i first spoke to the prince before we got married. i told him he didn't have to go through with marrying me cause i knew he didn't love me and his heart didn't belong to me. that's a part of selfless love. willing to sacrifice your heart and emotions for the sake of someone else. it shows that you respect the man.
what kind of love you want today? the kind of love that lasts. or the kind of love that leads to heartache?
elz
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