how many times have you wanted to just scream out your frustrations. i mean a full out scream. you spend all this time trying to figure out what's going on inside your heart. and when the answers don't come you just run instead of holding out for the bigger picture. you cave in instead of trusting God. you receive all this advice about what you are doing wrong instead of the facts.
I can't say for sure this is what job must of felt. i mean everything was taken from him yet his heart remained faithful to God. his friends tried to talk him out of his place. they must of thought they were right or something. I mean when you face difficult situations you trust your friends to speak words of life to you.and then they offer there opinions makes you want to scream even more depends on the circumstance however. usually you want to scream cause you are having an attitude about something silly,but to you it's the most serious deal ever. whether they are right or wrong in your mind you only hear what you want to hear. Going back to job. he trusted God over his friends and he was blessed way more. think about it! when we fix our eyes on the things of man we fall. but when we trust the creator of heaven and earth we find peace even in the difficult situations of life.
Right now i am having a really bad attitude towards some very specific people in my life. I've been praying and praying Jesus make my heart right. and my heart feels even more heavier. I keep having in a way little tantrums in my mind. If there is peace why can't I feel it right now is what i keep asking. Jesus is always there maybe the facts are i have allowed my heart to take on silly offenses and until i deal then my heart shall remain heavy.
maybe like me you have picked up little offenses and until you take time to deal with them/ and make sure when you do deal with them that your heart motives are right if not you will speak out of hurt and anger. nothing will get solved and you will be more angry then when you started. I don't have any more answers for this at the moment except i do not enjoy this little attitude i have towards these people. in my mind i am right but when it comes to offense you need to suck it up no matter how hard it is.and believe me it's easier said then done. my flesh doesn't want to suck it up but my spirit knows that I need to deal with things. letting go of an offense is not in a way giving up. it's humbling yourself enough to say I AM WRONG!!!!!! when it comes down to it. if you don't deal with the an offense you really just run away instead of deal with the situation. there are times you really don't want to deal with it, it is to hard.
Suck it up princess and deal with the issues at heart before it gets worse. (I know this is a little more harsh but it's what needs to be said.)
this time i have to follow my own advice. even though i don't want to!!!
elz
Right now i am having a really bad attitude towards some very specific people in my life. I've been praying and praying Jesus make my heart right. and my heart feels even more heavier. I keep having in a way little tantrums in my mind. If there is peace why can't I feel it right now is what i keep asking. Jesus is always there maybe the facts are i have allowed my heart to take on silly offenses and until i deal then my heart shall remain heavy.
maybe like me you have picked up little offenses and until you take time to deal with them/ and make sure when you do deal with them that your heart motives are right if not you will speak out of hurt and anger. nothing will get solved and you will be more angry then when you started. I don't have any more answers for this at the moment except i do not enjoy this little attitude i have towards these people. in my mind i am right but when it comes to offense you need to suck it up no matter how hard it is.and believe me it's easier said then done. my flesh doesn't want to suck it up but my spirit knows that I need to deal with things. letting go of an offense is not in a way giving up. it's humbling yourself enough to say I AM WRONG!!!!!! when it comes down to it. if you don't deal with the an offense you really just run away instead of deal with the situation. there are times you really don't want to deal with it, it is to hard.
Suck it up princess and deal with the issues at heart before it gets worse. (I know this is a little more harsh but it's what needs to be said.)
this time i have to follow my own advice. even though i don't want to!!!
elz
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